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damwinston
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   Posted 5/8/2005 9:40 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi -
First Happy Mother's Day.
Second, I need help I think.
I know that I had a seizure in 2001. I know I had a seizure in 2004 (because I was driving and got a DWI because of it) and I know I had one in October of 2004. I also seem to have ever increasing depression - kind of serious depression. Is one a causal factor of the other? I am on dilantin now - could that be causing my depression? I mean I am always a kind of depressed girl but this is out of control.
Does anyone knows anything?
thanks,
dammy

Thanks for the help.
Most people call me dammy.


goodwitch46
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   Posted 5/8/2005 10:28 AM (GMT -7)   

Happy Mother's Day to all the Mothers out there :-)

Dammy-  Welcome to HW

So sorry for the stuff you are going thru.  It's bad enough you have to go thru the fact that you have to deal with seizures, let alone the depression.  Are you seeing a doctor for the depression?  If not, you should talk to your neuro or family doc about seeing someone.  Or at least, seek counseling.  Don't let things get out of hand. It's one thing to feel a little blue, but when you feel out of control, do you mean you feel like you might harm yourself? If so, then you need to go to an emergency room where someone who is trained in mental health can help you right away.  Then you can get some help immediately. 

Yes, there is a know link to depression and antiseizure meds.  And for that matter, probably, epilepsy itself, due to the disabilty it produces in the form of isolation and inability to do many things.  How are you handling the depression? 

There are many people here that can support you.  Many can identify with your problems.  Come here anytime.              (((((HUGS)))))   Glenda :-)


complex partial seizures since 22
lamictal 200mg 2x/d
zonegran 150mg 3/d


damwinston
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   Posted 5/8/2005 10:50 AM (GMT -7)   

THANK YOU GLENDA THE GOOD WITCH!!

I have seen doctors for depression in the past - meds and therapy. It never seems to help. In fact, it usually makes it worse. Since I just moved (and can't drive for 1 year) it is hard to go see someone for help. I am pretty honest to my family how depressed I am so I say when things are really bad which they have been for about 1 week - I mean really bad.

I guess I am just at the point where I don't know what to do. Need a job - yes. Can I drive to get one? No. Just moved and have no friends here. Can I really do anything about that besides making prank phone calls and hoping I get a nice person? No. The strange thing is that the seizures don't really bother me - they scare everyone else but I don't really mind. Except when they call 911. I just wake up mad. I mean really mad and I will deny that I had a seizure until the cows come home. Is that normal?? I am not trying to lie to my family. I REALLY think that they are lying about me having a seizure (i mean right after I wake up).

I am at my wits end. Can't go anywhere. Can't meet people in a new town. Can't find a job. Can't pay my credit card bills. Can't quit being frustrated/depressed.

Thanks so much for your reply.

I only called you the good witch because my real name is Dorothy so please don't take it as an insult.

Thanks so much,

dammy


Thanks for the help.
Most people call me dammy.


goodwitch46
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   Posted 5/8/2005 10:59 AM (GMT -7)   

Dammy - Just Remember-

We all travel the yellow brick road.  Someday I hope you get back to Kansas!!

p.s. (that's why my name is goodwitch!)


complex partial seizures since 22
lamictal 200mg 2x/d
zonegran 150mg 3/d


kayakmom
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   Posted 5/8/2005 5:59 PM (GMT -7)   
Dammy, I am so sorry your road has been so rough. It is hard to dig out of depression plus seizures. Do you know if you have an epilepsy foundation or american epilepsy society around you? Sometimes they know what public transport you might qualify for......

It is tough indeed. Is there anything in biking distance to at least start you back working?


Depression is pretty common along with e...sorry the meds have not helped any. I know there are many, I wonder if it is a matter of finding the right one for you. Some epilepsy meds can make depression worse as well. Lamictal is one that is also used as a mood stabilizer so it might be worth asking your neuro about.

Hang in there......we can always listen.....

damwinston
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   Posted 5/8/2005 8:17 PM (GMT -7)   

Jennifer -

I passed the breathalizer with a 0.00%. Was not drinking but have no balance AT ALL and can't pass the field sobriery test. If I tell the authorities that I had a seizure then they will take my license forever and I don't know if I can take that. My body gives me about 15 minutes notice before I have a seizure so I actually feel pretty safe driving.

Thanks for your help. I just need friends. It sucks being stuck in a town that you don't know where there are people that you don't know.

Thank you all for your support (now I sound like the Bartles and James people)

dammy


Thanks for the help.
Most people call me dammy.


Daisy9980
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   Posted 5/8/2005 9:01 PM (GMT -7)   
Dammy, welcome to the group. Don't be timid to ask any questions here. WE are a warm friendly group of people .. I hope you are feeling well. Sorry to hear you got a dwi and you weren't under the influence. Not driving is tough. Hope you are feeling well. Tracy
 


RanMan
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   Posted 5/8/2005 9:07 PM (GMT -7)   
damwinston said...

Jennifer -

I passed the breathalizer with a 0.00%. Was not drinking but have no balance AT ALL and can't pass the field sobriery test. If I tell the authorities that I had a seizure then they will take my license forever and I don't know if I can take that. My body gives me about 15 minutes notice before I have a seizure so I actually feel pretty safe driving.

Thanks for your help. I just need friends. It sucks being stuck in a town that you don't know where there are people that you don't know.

Thank you all for your support (now I sound like the Bartles and James people)

dammy

Dammy,
You say that when you drive you get about 15 mins warning before a seizure. Supposing you r on a highway or freeway and you don't have the chance to pull over OR maybe the next time, you won't get your 15 mins warning.If you have no balance, don't you think that this is a major driving issue?
Is this a risk you r willing to take?
In my opinion, you should get you seizures and depression under control first.
You mentioned earlier that u were on dilantin?  This CAN SOMETIMES CAUSE DEPRESSION. Is this in co-ordination with any other meds?
Here is my experience with losing my lisence, I hope this can shed a little light on your situation:
 
I'm from Ontario, Canada, Our transpotation laws may differ from yours.
 
I've had EP since 1979 controlled by medication so reported at that time to the "Ministry of Transportation" that I was controlled by medication, no questions asked and I didn't lose my licence.
I must have slipped through the system because in ALL cases you must go seizure free for 2 years even if controlled by meds.
 
I drove without a problem until Dec/02 during an incident in a parking lot(I just came off the highway). It can hit at any time without warning.
 
Now my blood levels are being checked each week but the Ministry of Transport has tightened up the rules in this area in an attempt to reduce traffic accidents so that is making it more difficult to get it back. But if I do get it back (which I don't think) I still won't drive and risk the lives of others. I think that is the more resposible way to handle it and set an example for others.
 
It's just like driving drunk-you're taking a major risk.
At first I felt that some of my freedom was taken away but I've gone more than 2 years without it and I'm starting to accept it a little easier.
 
 
Randy

Diagnosed with epilepsy and ulcerative colitis in 1979,
Been on meds ever since.
 
275mg-dilantin/day
120mg-pheonobarb/day
3,000mg-Mesasol/day
20mg-Celexa/day


damwinston
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   Posted 5/8/2005 9:47 PM (GMT -7)   
Randy -
If I felt like my driving (seizurewise) was a risk to others  I WOULDN'T DO IT. Not because of laws or anything - just sense and common decency. I do not want to hurt anyone, ever. So, assuming I am seizure free until October 22 then both my 1 year licsence suspension (from the DWI) and the one 6 month waiting period for seizures I will able to drive again.
I would break the law and drive (i would if it was only for a emergency) BUT I won't risk the others and drive without being pretty sure that I will not have a seizure. Does that make any sense?
Also remember that I live in a town where I have no support social support and no transportantion system and therefore I go no where leading me further into depression.,
Does that make sense?
Thanks for your help and I am glad that you are starting to accept life without a driverse license. I wish I would reach that point but without public transportantion and with no friends here it is very hard to do.
I think if I had a job that I could do from home then I would at least feel like I was a productive member of society. I can't find one of those either.
Thanks for the support everyone.
dammy

Thanks for the help.
Most people call me dammy.


goodwitch46
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   Posted 5/9/2005 10:31 PM (GMT -7)   

Hi Dammy-

I can identify with the isolation situation.  I was working before my seizures became uncontrolled and had to quit working as a result.  Being at home isn't what it's cracked up to be.   I moved to a town where I didn't have any friends.  Luckily, my sister lives just a few blocks from me.  If it wasn't for her, I would go crazy from loneliness.  I haven't driven in 3 years, but I am hopeful that one day I will get my license back again. 

3 years ago, when I felt like I was living my darkest days, the only thing that kept me going was knowing that I had made it thru worse things before.  I wasn't about to throw in the towel yet.  I had two beautiful children.  I kept thinking about them. 

I have a left temporal lobe resection scheduled for June 20th and I don't know if I feel any less stress or depression from 3 years ago, but I do know that more people support me than I thought.   (Or maybe I feel less sorry for myself).  Anyway, that's why I come here.  The more support, the better.   Thank goodness for the internet.  Come vent anytime, Dammy.  (((HUGS))) Glenda  :-)   

 

 

 

 


complex partial seizures since 22
lamictal 200mg 2x/d
zonegran 150mg 3/d


damwinston
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   Posted 5/10/2005 6:20 AM (GMT -7)   

Thank you good witch.

I hope your surgery goes well - sounds promising and scary at the same time.

Yes, not driving is tough (to put it nicely). Dependence on people is hard,

Can anyone else feel when they are about to have seizure? Or am I just weird? Or both?

dammy


Thanks for the help.
I hope that we can all help each other.


kayakmom
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   Posted 5/10/2005 2:12 PM (GMT -7)   
Dammy, there are many who can feel when they are going to have one.....you are not weird.......

goodwitch46
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   Posted 5/10/2005 6:20 PM (GMT -7)   
Dammy-
Yes, I've heard many people say they can feel a seizure coming on before it happens to them.  I have simple partials that I THINK will progress to complex partials, but don't.  And then I have complex partials that I have just about 10 seconds of an aura warning.    
It seems like the seizures would always happen when I didn't want it to happen and I didn't have any  way to get out of my situation at all.   (Like the time I was getting my yearly evaluation by my boss!!!)
 
What kind of a feeling/warning do you have?       Glenda :-)
complex partial seizures since 22
lamictal 200mg 2x/d
zonegran 150mg 3/d


Graffixx_sk
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   Posted 5/23/2005 3:17 PM (GMT -7)   
Dammy
I know this is just a few days late but better late than never right? I empathise with you new town, no friends, no wheels please dont let the depression get the best of you, I caught your post just out of luck anyway what I would like to tell you is that you have a lot to give please understand that I have been there, I am still there so your not alone if thats any consolation. Go do something! Go do something that is cool for you right now! you have to or you will go nuts. Oh yeah and trust me on this it gets better (if you allow it to; do not allow epilepsy to control your life).

damwinston
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   Posted 5/29/2005 1:09 AM (GMT -7)   
Thanks Graffixx and Glenda.
I don't know what kind of warnings I get. That sounds funny but it is true. I just say "my head feels funny" and my family knows that I am going to have one within the next 30 minutes.
I have not had a seizure in quite a while. My bf thinks that I had one in the last two months but I didn't - I just fell and hit my head. A different part of my head hurt and I never lost consciousness (which, of course, I do when I have a seizure). Remember I don't have any balance!!
I am feeling less depressed. Tomorrow I am going home for a couple of weeks (my dad is out of town and since my mom only has 1 leg it is important that someone is there with her). Anyway, so off the dog and I go. It is good though. I like home (where my parents live and where I grew up) better than I like here.
My doc thinks that my seizures are caused by stress so now (since Feb) I take Xanax every day. Is that a common thing for people to take with seizures? Do a lot of people have stress-related seizures??
Just wondering.
Thanks,
dammy
Thanks for the help.
I hope that we can all help each other.


goodwitch46
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   Posted 5/29/2005 3:01 PM (GMT -7)   

Hi Dammy,

It's good that you haven't had a seizure in a while; bummer to have bad balance.  Just have to watch out not to put yourself in a position where you can do serious damage to yourself in case you go down (like on a ladder or sitting in a tree).    Hope your visit at home is comforting and you do ok.  (I always like to go home to a familiar place).

I think most people with epilepsy will agree that stress contributes to an increase in seizures.  I WISH that stress was the only thing that caused MY seizures - how sweet that would be.  But since I know reducing stress helps, it's a good thing to work on.  I think stress-related/depression meds are pretty common with epilepsy.  What do you do   to help your stress level?  What makes you feel happy /content?    

Often, I don't know I feel blue because it kind of creeps up on me.  For example:  If I've been stuck inside the house and feel depressed/stress and then I go outside to get the paper, I suddenly notice the sun shining and then I realize, WOW - what am I doing inside the house!! So it snaps me out of it. ... So, stress is sort of relative too.  Try to find things to do that make you productive and happy.  It's not easy at first.  But you will be glad you did.

(((HUGS)))   Glenda :-)

 


complex partial seizures since 22
lamictal 200mg 2x/d
zonegran 150mg 3/d

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