Happy Mother's Day to all the Mothers out there
Dammy- Welcome to HW
So sorry for the stuff you are going thru. It's bad enough you have to go thru the fact that you have to deal with seizures, let alone the depression. Are you seeing a doctor for the depression? If not, you should talk to your neuro or family doc about seeing someone. Or at least, seek counseling. Don't let things get out of hand. It's one thing to feel a little blue, but when you feel out of control, do you mean you feel like you might harm yourself? If so, then you need to go to an emergency room where someone who is trained in mental health can help you right away. Then you can get some help immediately.
Yes, there is a know link to depression and antiseizure meds. And for that matter, probably, epilepsy itself, due to the disabilty it produces in the form of isolation and inability to do many things. How are you handling the depression?
There are many people here that can support you. Many can identify with your problems. Come here anytime. (((((HUGS))))) Glenda
THANK YOU GLENDA THE GOOD WITCH!!
I have seen doctors for depression in the past - meds and therapy. It never seems to help. In fact, it usually makes it worse. Since I just moved (and can't drive for 1 year) it is hard to go see someone for help. I am pretty honest to my family how depressed I am so I say when things are really bad which they have been for about 1 week - I mean really bad.
I guess I am just at the point where I don't know what to do. Need a job - yes. Can I drive to get one? No. Just moved and have no friends here. Can I really do anything about that besides making prank phone calls and hoping I get a nice person? No. The strange thing is that the seizures don't really bother me - they scare everyone else but I don't really mind. Except when they call 911. I just wake up mad. I mean really mad and I will deny that I had a seizure until the cows come home. Is that normal?? I am not trying to lie to my family. I REALLY think that they are lying about me having a seizure (i mean right after I wake up).
I am at my wits end. Can't go anywhere. Can't meet people in a new town. Can't find a job. Can't pay my credit card bills. Can't quit being frustrated/depressed.
Thanks so much for your reply.
I only called you the good witch because my real name is Dorothy so please don't take it as an insult.
Thanks so much,
Dammy - Just Remember-
We all travel the yellow brick road. Someday I hope you get back to Kansas!!
p.s. (that's why my name is goodwitch!)
I passed the breathalizer with a 0.00%. Was not drinking but have no balance AT ALL and can't pass the field sobriery test. If I tell the authorities that I had a seizure then they will take my license forever and I don't know if I can take that. My body gives me about 15 minutes notice before I have a seizure so I actually feel pretty safe driving.
Thanks for your help. I just need friends. It sucks being stuck in a town that you don't know where there are people that you don't know.
Thank you all for your support (now I sound like the Bartles and James people)
I can identify with the isolation situation. I was working before my seizures became uncontrolled and had to quit working as a result. Being at home isn't what it's cracked up to be. I moved to a town where I didn't have any friends. Luckily, my sister lives just a few blocks from me. If it wasn't for her, I would go crazy from loneliness. I haven't driven in 3 years, but I am hopeful that one day I will get my license back again.
3 years ago, when I felt like I was living my darkest days, the only thing that kept me going was knowing that I had made it thru worse things before. I wasn't about to throw in the towel yet. I had two beautiful children. I kept thinking about them.
I have a left temporal lobe resection scheduled for June 20th and I don't know if I feel any less stress or depression from 3 years ago, but I do know that more people support me than I thought. (Or maybe I feel less sorry for myself). Anyway, that's why I come here. The more support, the better. Thank goodness for the internet. Come vent anytime, Dammy. (((HUGS))) Glenda
Thank you good witch.
I hope your surgery goes well - sounds promising and scary at the same time.
Yes, not driving is tough (to put it nicely). Dependence on people is hard,
Can anyone else feel when they are about to have seizure? Or am I just weird? Or both?
It's good that you haven't had a seizure in a while; bummer to have bad balance. Just have to watch out not to put yourself in a position where you can do serious damage to yourself in case you go down (like on a ladder or sitting in a tree). Hope your visit at home is comforting and you do ok. (I always like to go home to a familiar place).
I think most people with epilepsy will agree that stress contributes to an increase in seizures. I WISH that stress was the only thing that caused MY seizures - how sweet that would be. But since I know reducing stress helps, it's a good thing to work on. I think stress-related/depression meds are pretty common with epilepsy. What do you do to help your stress level? What makes you feel happy /content?
Often, I don't know I feel blue because it kind of creeps up on me. For example: If I've been stuck inside the house and feel depressed/stress and then I go outside to get the paper, I suddenly notice the sun shining and then I realize, WOW - what am I doing inside the house!! So it snaps me out of it. ... So, stress is sort of relative too. Try to find things to do that make you productive and happy. It's not easy at first. But you will be glad you did.