I'm from the lupus and MS forums. I saw this post and just had to respond. I hope you don't mind. I'm so sorry you lost your grandma. (((((Hugs)))) My mom passed away almost 2 years ago with colon cancer. Of course I was devistated, but my daughter was 20 at the time and it really effected her. She was away at college and didn't get to spend much time with her in the end. They were very close!!
My mom was dx with cancer in june of 2003 and passed away in sept of 2003. When she was dx, she and my father moved in with me and my husband and we took care of her for the last 3 months of her life. We had alot of time to talk and share in the memories of the past, but my daughter didn't have that time with her. She was able to see her a day or two here and there, but she was very upset that she couldn't spend more time with her and like you, she wanted her to be at her wedding also, but she wasn't even involved with anyone and still isn't.
I just want to let you know that my daughter and I talk about my mom alot. We talk about the good times we all had together, places we went, talks we all had, the funny things that my mom had done. She was a very funny lady!!
I know this is very hard for you and you are greiving now, but try to think about the good times and cherish the memories you have of your grandmother. I know she will always be in your heart and you will think of her often, especially when you are doing or saying something that reminds you of her. Remember she is in heaven and not sick anymore. I'm sure she is watching over you.
My daughter says she talks to her alot at night when she goes to bed. I do that as well. Even though she isn't talking back to us, this is our way of letting her know we love her and she is still with us.
Here's a big *hug* from me!! Take your time and let yourself greive, then keep her in your heart always. Take care and God Bless You!!! You will be in my thoughts and prayers.
I am from the cardiovascular and allergy forum and I just saw your post.
I am truly sorry for the loss of your Grandmother, Tracy. It is very hard to lose anyone that we are close to. I just lost both of my parents this past year, so I know that feeling of loss and sadness. Just remember though, you will always carry a part of her, her memory, with you for the rest of your life. And with that memory she will live on.
It's good to hear from you. I'm glad your family will be coming in soon to be there with you. You all need each other right now. Sunday will be a hard day for you. The funeral is the hard part to get through. That was when I really broke down and let the tears roll, but it seemed to help me to get it out.
I'm glad your job is so good to you and understanding. It was nice of them to send a nice flower basket. Sending you "Big warm hugs"!! I will be thinking about you on Sunday and you will be in my prayers. God Bless You!!!
I know tomorrow will be hard for you, but you will have your family there with you. I pray that you don't have a seizure tomorrow. Stay near a family member or friend that you are very close to, that will give you comfort.
I'm sure your grandma hears you talking to her and she is looking down you on. Know that she is no longer is in pain and in a good place now. I hope you get some sleep tonight and you will be in my thoughts and prayers tomorrow. God Bless You!! (((((((hugs)))))))) You can do this!!!
Just wanted to send you some ((((((hugs))))) today!!! Your in my thoughts and prayers.
I hope the funeral wasn't a big stress on you and you didn't have any health problems. (((((((hugs)))))) to you and when you feel up to it, let us know how it went. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
((((hugs)))) I just wanted to let you know I'm thinking about you today!!
It's good to hear from you. Thank you for the quick update. I know you are still sad and mad. That is normal sweetie!! It will take time. (((((Hugs))))
I'm glad you meet so many nice people at the service. I'm sure your grandma will be missed by many. I will be looking for your next post when your up to it to hear the nice stories.
You take care and try to get plenty of rest. You are still in my thoughts and prayers.