Psychic-As an adult, the bulk of my "spells", for lack of better word, will just feel like I have entered some kind of mystical state. I don't lose my sense of who I am etc... but it feels like as if I having some kind of re-connection to and strange familiar past time/space. Like I am re-experiencing an old familiar memory of some kind; and yet this kind of spell can occur in a place I have never been before. This feels different from classic deja-vu. It is actually a pleasant experience because when it happens I want to just stay in that moment forever. Although I have episodes of classaic déjà vu (where everything I say or do seems like I have said it exactly the same way before) but this feels very different. It feels like I am seeing the universe much more clearly for the first time, as if I am approaching some kind of enlightened state where I will soon "know" everything, figure everything out; figure out the mystery of life itself, It feels like a powerfully joyful feeling, like I don’t want it to ever end. There is a time/space quality as if I am experiencing the world and somehow gone back in time to a period "before time" as in a priori, primordial, or primeval state. It has a very spiritual feeling, like I am connecting with something much bigger than myself. It feels like I’ve reached such a spiritual epiphany. The sensation is a pleasant one that lasts between 1 and 4 minutes or so in length.
Olefactory- sometimes I will smell something that no one else around me does. Usually it has been an ammonia-type smell, chlorine bleach, gasoline, dead mouse, and dirty smelly feet. It only lasts under a minute and then it is gone.
Auditory-Although I have never processed any unusual sounds or noises, my hearing has always been super-sensitive. Loud noises or high-pitched noises actually hurt my ears. I have tinitis (ringing in the ears) pretty frequently.
GI-I have had periods of rapid onset of nausea throughout my day for many years, that has nothing to do with eating. I have not vomited just felt very nauseated. This lasts a few minutes and then goes away. I used to think that maybe my blood sugar was low, and that eating a snack would make it disappear, but eating something has never alleviated the nausea; it just goes away on it’s own. I also get this funny feeling in my stomach that feels like yeast bubbling.
(Feeling of Detachment from my body- almost Outer Body Experience) I have had a few episodes througout my life, like I was floating a bit away from myself maybe only a foot or two. Almost hovering next to my body. The internist as a teen, told me it was depersonalization and asked me if I was under alot of stress. The sensation is like watching yourself performing functions almost as if you are not connected to yourself somehow. Often as a young child I would feel confused and approach my father, mother or teacher and tell them, "I’m not sure if I am awake or asleep." This happened frequently but I have learned how to tolerate these sensations. Now as an adult it has seem to either decrease, or I just got better at ignoring it; I’m not sure which.
(Angry + vioent thoughts/ feelings) Sometimes I will feel absolutely rageful and I am not certain why. It has nothing to do with circumstances going on and is void of any emotional type thoughts preceding the episode. Lasts typically a few minutes and I am always cognizant at the time that I shouldn’t be feeling so angry and am puzzled, as to why I am.
All replies would be appreciated!!
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I have experienced EVERYTHING that you have desribed over my 27 years of diagnosed epilepsy. These are all side effects from the long term use of meds.
I have posted my experiences on this forum over the past two years. If you get a chance, please read my past posts and compare notes: Career Change, De-ja-vu, auras. strange smells, dilantin side effects, effects of hot weather, long term use of meds, paranoia, DRIVING WITH EP (my favorite), memory loss, short term memory, Epilepsy and Ulcerative Colitis, EP and Bipolar syndrome-is there a connection?, eye sight, Outerbody experiences, and there are probably several others that I can't remember as well as some of my replies to other posts.