I know all about how ones career can be overly painful for some of us. I was a hair designer for over 20 years when I finally realized that standing behind the chair day in and day out was killing me.
I needed to work not only for the income but for the movement. I can't sit still for very long since doing so leads to it's own physical problems plus I am a little on the antsy side. Hubby calls me "idget the fidget".
I decided to cut the hair down to two days a week, no longer than 6 hours at any one stretch.... (when I HAVE to) and started my own pet sitting company. It is plenty physical but in a different way. With hair I was suffering all day long to the point that I wasn't able to stay upbeat and pleasant for my clients. All I could do was focus on the intense pain while working.
I work twice as many hours now and rarely get a day off (last day off was April 28th!!!) but the work involved now is at an easier pace. My arms are not constantly raised like they used to be. It's been three years now with a "dual" career but it is working for me. I just decided this past week that I would eliminate Saturday's as one of my days of doing hair since pet sitting is so busy on Saturdays and trying to get them both done on that day was turing into PAIN. We have to do what is best for our bodies since they never let us forget that "IT" (fibro), is in charge.
I still suffer when I do hair but now it is easier to recover since I always make sure to have days of not doing it in between.
Is there any possible way that having you return to nursing can be done on a part-time basis? Are benefits available for those that work less than full-time if they have been full-time in the past? This might allow for you to find something else to suplement the income without causing your body so much distress.
Just a thought.
I relate to you on a couple of things. One is being a nurse. I did geriatric nursing for 16 yrs. and I would have 32 patients to take of! Sounds like things have not changed a bit. I burned out needless to say, it just got to be too much. Being short staffed was a given, on your feet the whole time till the end of the shift to do mounds of charting and paperwork, etc., etc. I could not do it anymore and that was "before" fibro!
It was suggested, maybe part-time? My company offered medical ins. if you worked a certain number of hours per pay period. And I would keep looking for something else. Yes, there is stress with a new job but that would be short term.
I'm also out on the FMLA right now and the thought of going back makes me a little apprehensive. Thinking, will I be able to do this? And will it get all the "bad" pain and fatigue going again? Because I'm just starting to feel better since this fibro hit.
So, my thoughts and prayers are with you all the way!! All you can do is "try", that is what I am going to do and if it doesn't work out, it's on to Plan B. I wish you the best. GamJill