Reason for edit, we aren't suppose to mention anything remotely connected to suicide on the forum. Thank you for understanding...
Post Edited By Moderator (getting by) : 7/29/2008 6:26:22 (GMT-6)
Today I am NOT coping. Tomorrow I may be. But for today I am NOT and I know only those here understand! I hurt, I hurt, I hurt. I want one normal day to crawl out of bed without hesitation that my feet won't hit the floor hurting. That I move normally to the restroom and get dressed in a minimum amount of time.
I think some extra stresses with family issues has thrown me even deeper into this flare if that is possible. I am on the verge of screaming and crying like a child. I'm tired, hurting and exhausted from trying to function in a normal world, continue to work, interact with friends and family. I need a vacation of just me and some alone time to re focus.
Surely tomorrow I can cope better...today I'm having difficulty.
Hang in there. I remember when I had my first symptoms. I was in so much pain and so tired, I just sat on my couch and stared at the wall, too tired and in pain to even read or watch tv. Once I was diagnosed, at least I knew what I was up against. It will get easier, after you find things that work for you. As the others have said. You just need to keep fighting!!! Know that you are not alone.