You are not alone in your fear. I too did not take anything strong for pain. Until I just could not take it anymore. My Doctor (bless his heart) was just waiting for me to finally accept his advice. I went on a strong opiate and have never regretted it other than having to take something that strong for pain. But, other than having to have it, I finally got the relief I so desparetely needed. I think society has us programmed to always "just suck it up and dont complain" Society was wrong. well, for me they were. Different people handle it (the pain) differently.One way is no more right than the other. You are not alone in your feelings. I truly understand. I am sending you the most positive, kind, loving, healing thoughts I can.I hope you find your comfort zone soon for your decisions in your treatment. It is not a character weakness in admitting your pain or even having pain. Remember Sue, you are not alone.
Hearts, flowers, puppy dogs breath and babies laughing.
O Breath...can I relate to you, having only one son of my own, and three grandson, all living 5 hours away by car. Not a world away, but certainly far away enough that I don't to seem them very often and I'm sure you can relate to that feeling. I don't know about you, but when I am with my grandbabies, I think my natural opioiates kick in, and the adrenaline, because I always feel better when I am with them...not perfect, but oh so much better.
I too take opioids - I take a form of Vicodin, but it has ibuprofen mixed in with it, called Vicoprofen and it has really helped me. Doesn't take all the pain away, but it allows me to do "most" of what I need or want to do. What I miss the most is my former exercise routine. I was an exercise nut...loved to take LONG walks...I'm talking 4 to 6 miles DAILY, then I'd go to work for 8 hours, then come home, walk my dogs another two miles, take care of dinner, take my son where he needed to be and this went on day after day and I loved it. I felt so healthy, so fit, until fibro hit, when I was 38 and well, you all know the rest of that story. Life just takes a real turn, doesn't it?
Anyway, I seemed to get off the subject here, another thing I do quite frequently, or forget what I'm saying altogether ...really just wanted to say I have no guilt over what I take. I thank God there is something that can help me to at least live some of my life, on some days. Bad flare days? Well, I take those with a grain of salt and an extra pain pill and a good nap. I have learned over the past 20 yeares to give in to the flares...you won't win, not much other choice...
take good care,
Fibromyalgia, Osteoarthritis, scoliosis, microdiskectomy C5/C6, bulging disks L3/L4, compressed nerve L5/S1, disc compression L5/S1, IBS, hypothyroidism (now FINALLY well controlled)