You described me to a T. I feel the same way and have the very same issues. I haven't been able to accept this about me and the Fibro. I'm having a hard time at work and trying to explain my mistakes away. When you said... you'll be writing and some other letter appears... that happens to me. Or I'll write with extra loops to the point I have to toss the paper start again and miss the point of the note/message. I work for a Podiatrist (foot dr./part-time) and it's causing concern for me. I'm even considering confessing that I have Fibro. I just fear being treated as an idiot or losing my job. Secretly, I think it would relieve my stress and anxiety if I was fired.
I think Fibro Fog is just awful and I rarely speak clearly or without mistake. I see co-workers faces looking back at me as if I'm drunk and I see frustration in my family. They will even comment like... just say it or fill in words for me that frustrates me and makes me either stop talking or slip away from the conversation as soon as possible.
Pain is hard to deal with, but it's a private pain. The fibro fog is something that embarasses me in public, home and work and I would give anything to find a way to fix it.
Luckily, one thing I really haven't had a problem with is driving. I mean, I have to be careful of all the other idiots on the road, but I am usually really good at driving. It's one of the only freedoms I have, and I really can't go anywhere all that much because I have to preserve gas and everything. It's hard to do things you would love to do when you are poor. Anyways. sometimes, I zone out while I am driving...I'll be listening to the radio and my thoughts are on something else, and it is like my subconscious takes me where I need to go.
I joke a lot and tell people that I feel like Dory from Finding Nemo. But sometimes, I really do feel that way. She would be in the middle of a conversation, there would be a pause, and then she would be like, "Can I help you?" And that is how I feel most times when I have really bad fibro fog.
Good luck to those of you who have trouble driving because of the fog. Take care. *soft hugs*
Wow, I feel like everyone has insite to my most inner person. You all are describing me . I feel everything you are describing. I have gotten better on medication but I still have a lot of fibro fog. I'm ok at home, my family as excepted my fog. They leave me notes, remind me where I was going and laugh with me when I say something really silly. I do get nervous at work when I'm having a bad day, I write everything down and try really hard not to speak up when I'm fogging. I work with highly educated people who don't have any of these issues so the wrong word coming out of my mouth makes me look like an idiot. The more I worry about it the worse I get. The first thing I try to do is calm myself down so it doesn't get worse. I usually excuse myself and go to the bathroom so I can collect myself.
As far as driving, I focus on what I'm doing. If I have to open the window or talk to myself (I repeat where I'm going and why), I do. I'm not that bad with driving but I do need to remind myself to stay on my toes.
I hate the fog but it's comforting to know that I am not the only one.