I hope your getting some sleep as I am writing this. I was wondering when you would have your meltdown- I am strong through the actual crisis and then when the worse is over I fall to pieces. The fear you must have felt when your son was in his accident and the thoughts of losing him also had to have been almost unbearable. You also just lost your nephew. You have every right in the world to feel the way you do! "Anger" being a big one. So scream, cry, cry, cry, vent, vent, vent, do what ever you have to! You have been through alot.
We already have our plates full with the fibro and then add "life" to it and it can get impossible.
For thirty-two years now my life has not been easy. Being a single parent, two divorces, my list goes on and on. If someone asked me to explain how I feel everyday -it is simple. I feel like I am a warrior going off to fight a battle everyday. And that is prefibro.
I know that part of my sanity is the "support" here, and I am sure you feel the same way. Know that we are here for you Diane.
How can I thank you all for being so kind and compassionate? Reading these replies, I see that alot of you are going through depression as well. Seasonal depression mixed with illness, pain, grief...I'm certainly not the only one suffering. It's just that sometimes it gets to be too much for one person to handle you know? Alice..please dont ever feel you need to appologize to me...you are suffering too...your sick...you have to find a competent doctor, your hubby is ill too...etc etc You did not let me down my dear. This is the second time in 6 weeks that I needed you people, and you were there right with me, reaching out to grab my hand and pull me back out of the murky waters of self doubt and depression and grief.
Someone said, they still have alot to be thankful for, so I thought about all the things that are ok, and you know what? That list was alot longer than I imagined. And (I know Sherrine..poor grammar lol), I found this site, I found you, we found each other. So it shall be, help one another, dont let things build up to the boiling point, and dont be afraid to share these good/bad feelings with each other.
So..Alice, Stephanie, Jeannie, SHerrine, Gamjill, and Karen, Thank you, friends
P.S. Jeannie, if we lived next door to each other...I would be bugging you for cake ALL the time
God bless and keep you
Post Edited (ericsmom) : 10/18/2008 4:01:58 PM (GMT-6)
i pray that God will give you the peace that passes all understanding and that He gives you the strength to face the day.