try not to be hard on yourself- i was diagnosed at 14yrs of age and understand the difficulty of balancing school with illness. im now 28 and managed to get a double degree under difficult circumstances- my health, both mental and physical was just so fragile at the time.
my 4 year degree took me 5 years because i had to take a lighter load in order to physically cope- i was missing classes and lectures etc and although my college professors were kind and patient, i knew i was frustrating them. so i spread my classes out a bit and made it in the end. having a lighter load was the only option as my body perpetually failed me.
i started out nursing in oncology, but have ended up a high school teacher- art & english, which is physically demanding and emotionally draining, but i cope by literally taking life one day at a time- otherwise i would be overwhelmed.
i know how it feels to be young and feel incapacitated. you feel trapped and helpless- ive always wanted everyone in the world to spend just one day in the life of a chronically ill person, so they would know that our illnesses may be invisible to them, but they are just as real as people who are crippled by illnesses that the naked eye sees.
peace & blessings, always here for a chat