Welcome to the fibro family. Your story sounds all too familiar. So many of us have had to play musical doctors, been accused of being drug addicts, or have been called hypochondriacs. I have gone to doctors since I was 15 years old (I'm almost 37 now) and been dismissed as depressed, crazy, drug seeking, or just needing to lose weight. Finally, I found a doctor who would listen to me. I was seeing him for chronic back pain when I found out that my sister had fibro. I never really knew what it was, and when I mentioned my similar symptoms to my doctor, he suggested bloodwork. I might also have Lupus, but after tons of visits with him and a rheumy, I was finally given the wonderful dx of fibro. LOL-my sister and I have never had anything else in common, so why this?
After years of begging from my family, I just moved back home to SC, and I'm trying to live with my parents again. I was on CA state disability, and I foolishly thought that every state had it's own state disability (it has nothing to do with Social Security). Now, I am in SSDI/SSI limbo. Anyway, I do have a new doctor (well, he's not really new, I saw him when I was about 13 years old) here who seems to listen to me and is willing to work with me. He told me that he would help me try to get the Social Security.
To finally answer your question, yes, I doubted my sanity. In fact, I usually doubt it on a daily basis. I think I'm going crazy from the fibro fog, and my mom has a hard time understanding my pain and the "system" of Social Security. I still find that strange considering she is a nurse who deals with painful patients. But, I really think she must be in denial with me. That's what I'm telling myself, anyway.
OK, I really hope that you'll feel comfortable enough to talk about things here. We truly are a family. LOL-sometimes we may annoy each other, but at the end of the day, we'd do anything for each other.
Yes, I questioned my sanity! I even asked my physical therapist if I was losing my mind. She said definilty not and told me about fibro. I had never heard of it and really wasn't sure I had it. It took two more years before I could get my doctor to take me seriously. I heard the same as you "your a mother of three small children, of course you are going to be tired". My FM started with the fatigue and progessed to severe brain fog and pain. I'm now on meds and feeling better. I think part of the healing for me was hearing that I wasn't alone in the way I was feeling. I know I'm not crazy! I do believe in fibro and it pains me to think that there are so many people out there that (especially educated people like doctors) don't think it's real. I don't like having attention directed at me, I usually suffer in silence, so there theory that I'm a hypocondriac doesn't make sense. Educate yourself and listen to your body, you are not crazy!