Worries. Worry and fear. I think we all are going through some of that right now. I know money is tight at my home and I am really watching every penny that goes out the door. It has to be so hard for you since you are trying to earn money to live but are suffering so much. This does sound like a flare and, Honeyprincess, your anxiety and worry is just making it worse! If you could stop worrying your stress would lessen, then your pain, and then you could work the hours you need to pay your bills. The worrying doesn't help you one bit but it does make you feel worse.
Do you have an Aldi's close to you? We had them come to my area and they have a lot of good products for very little money. I am saving a lot buying things there. When I have errands to run, I plan on doing them at one time and map out a route so that I'm not using gasoline needlessly. I've turned down my heat a notch and started wearing warmer clothing. These are just a few ideas to help you with finances. Financial concerns are pretty miserable. It's wonderful that you have such a great friend.
No, it isn't fair and no you haven't done anything to deserve this illness. This is called "life". I have several health issues, too, that have no cure, but none of them will kill me either! So, I'm thankful that the things I have I can control. You can too.
Try taking deep breaths through your nose and blowing it out your mouth...like you are blowing through a straw. That will help to try to relax you a little. The stretching exercises on Fibro 101 can be done sitting down so you could do this at work to help loosen the muscles. Then, take one day at a time. You are projecting yourself in the future! You are worrying about things that haven't happened and no one knows what the future holds. You can plan for one day and see it through successfully.
I do hope you calm down and start to feel a little better. A good cry usually helps me and then I stare fibro in the eye and push on. Feel better.
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God does not give us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind. 2 Timothy 1:7