Oh...I am so so sorry for your nightmare. The only reassurence that I can give you is that the Fog and memory issues are typical and please don't worry about having a brain tumor...although there probably isn't one of us on this forum that don't wonder about that from time to time. I rented a movie on pay per view last night and my husband said..."Why did you rent that? We have seen it twice already." I honestly don't remember a thing about it (Charlie Wilson's War). I am a writer and have given up completely because my spelling is dyslexic(sp??) and I will read back a sentence that I already wrote in a previous paragraph. I have lost three cell phones in the past six months and I can't tell you how many times I have left my ATM card in the slot at the bank. I had to ask the hubby what kind of Van we owned for an insurance question I had to answer...as I had an accident last week end in a parking lot. I get lost in stores I have been in a million times. I'll go into a store for one item and just stand there once inside, forgetting what I am in there to buy. The list goes on and on and I know how frustrating it is.
We lost our health insurance when we moved back to NY from VA so I know how scary it is to feel like you can't get the meds you need. I ask for samples, and if the doc has them, I take them. Lexapro costs a fortune!
hang in there and I hope you find something to do that you can cope with.(never end a sentence with a preposition but what do I care anymore??!) This disease really sucks.
I am so sorry that you lost your job. That really stinks! As far as what you descibe, you could be describing me. I have all of those problems but since I have been medicated (prozac and pamelor, no I'm not drepressed, although my doc keeps asking me if I am, I think it's an insurance thing) it is only really bad when I'm in a flare like today. I took my youngest daughter to a ceramics class today. When I went to pay, I handed the girl my money but she told me that I had given you way to much. I couldn't comprehend what she was saying to me, I just said "Sorry, I'm having a bad day would you just please give me back what you don't need". I felt like an idiot but that has been my whole day. I keep using the wrong words and my kids think it is funny but they are getting used to the new mom.
There are jobs out there that you will be able to do. I had to change jobs myself and what a difference it has made. I don't fear making huge mistakes anymore, I actually like going to work. It sounds like you may be putting to much stress on yourself, that can trigger the fog and make things worse. For now you should try to concentrate on feeling better, things will be ok! We all seem to suffer some kind of major change with this disorder but we all get through it and we will be here for support.
I am so sorry about losing your job and how you are feeling,
Everyone has given you great advice, but I wanted to let you know that I have been going through the same thing with my job. I work as a Secretary/Bookkeeper for a Tree Company, the only difference is that I am the only one in the office and my boss doesn't know how bad it is getting. I forget important things. Previous customers will call for service and I don't remember them. I even forget to ask the right quesions when someone calls for an estimate.
I had to cut back my days because I just couldn't do it anymore. Right now, I am working 1 day a week and answering work calls from home on 2 days. Even that is too much. I am having alot of problems and hurting so much that my mind just doesn't work.I am just lucky that the owner gives me free reign and let's me run the office as I want. I know the day is coming when I will sign up for disability, but trying to hold off.
I'm sorry I talked so long about me, but I want you to know that all the things you are going through are typical of Fibro. Sometimes you will have good days where you remember everything and some days you won't.
Sherrine was talking about COBRA. My husband's plant closed back 3 years ago and we were able to carry his insurance for a couple years. It gave us time for my hubby to find another good paying job with insurance. Maybe you can call the personal department at your old job and talk to them about your choices.
I think you need to talk to your doctor and let him know things are getting worse. He should be able to give you something for stress. It helped me and sometimes you just need that extra push to help you get through things without being scared or bummed all the time.
Good luck with everything and I hope it all works out for you. Keep us posted or holler anytime you need help.
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