I am so sorry about the ordeal you are going through at the moment. My first suggestion is that you might consider going back on some of your medications, as much as you don't want to and I completely understand that. My kids forced me to get something for my anxiety and pain a year ago. I did not realize how upsetting it was for THEM to see me in the condition I was in. Up until that point I was taking nothing except Advil, and I was sitting in a chair crying for hours on end. I think it is difficult for people who love us to see us suffer.
As far as your symptoms go...they certainly resemble many of the symptoms I experience. I am dragging my right leg at the moment...my balance is off and my hip throbs like a tooth ache. My legs tingle and 'crawl' 24/7. This all happened after my I had my two month old grand daughter for two weeks and just was not sensible about walking her, picking her up from the crib...I felt almost normal when she was here but a couple of days after she went back to Atlanta with her mother I collapsed and have been in a flare ever since (she came the end of October). I think most of us on the forum tend to over-do when we have a few 'good days' and try to accomplish a months worth of work...then we pay the price.
Think about going back on your meds and see how you feel. You might be surprised!
Feel better...and my New Years resolution was to never ever again Google my symptoms. It's the Kiss of Death for those of us who suffer from health anxiety along with the fibro!
I have trouble with my heels. Sometimes I cannot even touch them because it is too painful. I have been wearing slippers for a month now because of swelling and also I can't put anything against my heels. I also walk funny! I feel as if I have no strength in my legs and I am terrible at stairs because my knees are getting bad!
Anyway, wanted to let you know that you are not alone. I wish you would think about getting something from your doctor for pain. It really helps so that you can at least rest & relax a bit. I don't know how you do it! I am on painkillers and sometimes that isn't enough! I hope you are able to get some rest and relief.
Sometimes a shower or heating pad will help. I hope things get better for you. Hang in there!
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Dear Jenna: I am writing for the third time today, Vista, my operating system ate two posts already. So, you are not taking anything for BiPolar, Fibromyalgia, and OTC. Not to mention " unrealistic fears". That is why I have been seeing a psychiatrist for most of my life to help me sort out what is realistic and what is not realistic. I also am a Fibromite with BiPolar disorder, as is most of my family on Maternal side. Without a trustworthy objective observer, I would not know. I know I suffered a lot as a child and youth, thinking I wasn't good enough, didn't fit in, I thought people were making fun of me, and I was scared to go to school. It took years of counselling and yes, some medication, for me to get a handle on when a fear was realistic or not. Is there an objective observer, like friends or parents who tell you they are "unrealistic".? I ask that because as a BiPolar person myself, and having it through-out my entire family, often, the fear may be rooted in reality or it may not be. Years later school chums told me they thought I was pretty cool, back then, but nonetheless, the signals I got were rejection.
The pain issue (associated with Fibro) can be treated with a minimum of medication. I am not telling you what to do, but I hurt just thinking you are weathering today, without comfort from the Fibro Flare. Someone mentioned a "warm bath," I like mine a bit on the hot side, epson salts (or bath crystals) will sometimes soak away some of the pain.
One big thing I have learned is that if I don't stop and take rest periods through-out the day, if I over do it, I will pay the price in pain. So, I do try not to over do it.I am sorry you feel so awful. I wrap myself in an electric blanket, get my "bed buddy" heated up, and put those heat patches, like you put in mittens, all over my body, wherever it hurts. I end up looking like a bulletin board.
Please consider getting some medication for the pain, something for the BiPolar. I prefer some of the older, time tested meds, like valium. It is true for me anyway, that all my stress congeals in certain vulnerable muscles in my body. Not the same, everyday, plus muscle spasms. The valium, when I have it (Doc gives me a limited ammt.), takes away some pain by relaxing the muscles, takes away the irritability I feel from BiPolar, and helps with the OTC and fear.