So, I had a bit of a breakdown this morning with my husband, but I think it was a good thing and long overdue. He had seen the changes in my over the past few months and the deteriation mentally and physically, but for the most part I tried to deny that there was any problem other than whiplash and I just kept telling anyone who had asked that I had a recurring flu (I know that's not the case though, I had the flu shot)... anyway, after being up all night in pain and terrible stomach and back aches and every kind of discomfort you can think of, I really broke down crying for the first time and told my husband the extent of what has been going on...
His sister finally is admitting that she doesn't have fibro, that she thinks it was just her addiction, but because of all of the months of constant exaggeration and complaining about her fake fibro and making it out to be completely different than it actually is, it is really hard for me to admit to that side of the family (who I am really close with) that I acatually have what she is faking - it already has such a bad rep that I don't know if anyone actually believes that this is real... i mean, she even had me believing that fibro was completely different than what it is until I began having all of these complications and seeing doctors for it.
Anyway, my husband was suprisingly open minded and wants to go to the DR with me to tell him about the changes that he has witnessed in me, since whenever I go I can't seem to even remember what my symptoms were teh day before, plus, it is only recently that I am realizing that so mny things are intertwined.
Anyway, I really think that it would help tremendously if I went to a therapist to work some of this out and start accepting and working on moving forward with my life and learning the best ways to come out of denial fully and cope with everything. I would rather a therapist who is familiar with fibromyalgia so that he can better understand what I am going through. Does anyone know of any in central NJ or staten island that they would reccommend?
"What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us." ~Ralph Waldo Emerson