I don't even want to think of how much weight I have gained over the last 5 years, but I have gotten to where I hide from people I haven't seen in awhile because I don't want them to see how fat I am now!
I know I have to work on losing, but every time I have tried I either hurt too much or get bummed again and give up. I've tried to get my Rheumy to let me try the provigil, but he didn't seem like he wanted too. I just don't know what to do. 4 of my medications have weight gain as a side effect, so I know some of the weight is from that, but I also don't do as much as I used to . I'm always hurting too bad or just don't have any energy!
I went 2 weeks ago and got a perm because I just couldn't hold a hair dryer up to do my hair. With the perm I can just apply gel and let it dry on it's own. I really like my hair now, so that is one good thing. Otherwise, I am not too happy about myself and need to change that. Guess I'm the opposite of how you are feeling. Thanks for listening to my rant.
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I have a question for you. Are you single? I'm just asking, because of my current situation. You may have read my post about my marriage falling apart. My husband has always made me feel guilty for my weight or cutting my hair too short. Tell me I'll feel better once my husband and I no longer live together.
I know what you're saying about doing your long hair everyday. I had long hair that I flat ironed everyday. Now I have a bob to my shoulder that I wash and straighten every other day. I too am happier for it. The divorce makes me feel like coloring my hair a wild color, leaving it naturally curly and knowing that I don't have to worry about what my husband thinks constantly. I'll never stop with the make up, but I might just find authentic self inspite of my divorce and this darn fibro. I too believe that I feel better when I put effort into myself, but not for anyone but myself.
I don't 'dressed' up often, but I get dressed each morning as soon as I get up. I head to the bathroom to brush my teeth and wash my face and do my hair. Nothing fancy, but I like it ready to go. I can't wear heels, refuse to wear a dress, prefer casual. When I went to work I always wore make-up, eye shadow, mascara, & light lipstick. I even continued that when I stopped working but had to go out for appt or to teach my CCD class. Since the summer, I haven't been able to keep my arms or hands up to do eye make-up. I'm happy to be able to apply Blistex on my chapped lips. My skin has always been very sensitive and I have had to use special make-up, this is much better.
My sister told me jokingly 40 yrs ago, when she dies, I'm in charge of making sure her make-up looks just so in the casket. I'm glad she has a daughter and GD's to take over that job. I can't handle the job on me now, don't want to imagine the job I would do on her.
I dress in layers b/c I'm always cold. Right now I have 4 layers on and I'm in the house. My DD is in shorts and T-shirt, NO i'm not in some warm tropical island, It is cold here. My sons go out w/ a light jacket on when it's snowing. I just 'own' them, I don't explain them.
God bless. Alice.