I have: Fibromyalgia, CFS, Holt-Oram Syndrome, nasal allergies, depression, TMJ
Meds: Ibuprofen 600mg every 4-6 hours, Cyclobenzaprine 10 mg, Simvastatin 20mg, Citaloram 20mg Melatonin 5mg Sublingual, B12 sublingual, B Complex, Folic Acid, Omega 3
Married to a wonderful supportive husband & between us we have 4 children & 7 grandchildren
As apples of gold in silver carvings is a word spoken at the right time for it. Prov. 25:11
Christi, I think you should talk to your Mom, just like you talk to us, tell her how you're feeling. Hopefully your be receptive to the idea of getting you some professional counseling. If not, then talk to an adult you can trust, that can encourage your mom to get you some help. If all else fails then talk to your doctor and have him/her get you a referral to a counseler (sp?). If you feel that you need to be talking to someone then you absolutely should. I think we all feel a little overwhelmed by things and it's good to get it out. I also think that we all have the same feelings that you have, but if you can't stop thinking about it, then you should talk to someone professional about it.
It looks like everyone in the forum is supporting you and that's awesome!! And remember.. we all lose our "chi" now and then Finding one's self takes a lifetime so there's no point in rushing it!!
You sound so much like my 15 year old daughter. She is always asking me why she doesn't fit in. Like you she has a group of friends but doesn't feel like a part of it. Like my daughter, I suspect that you are an exceptional person and exceptional people over analyze life. I bet your friends would be suprised to hear that you feel disconnected from them. I always tell my daughter what you see on the outside is rarely what is happening on the inside. To some point we all feel alone in life. Your friends may seem like they have no worries but in actuality some of them may be suffering things you couldn't even imagine. You need to learn to love you. You are a wonderful person!!!! Take care of yourself first, learn how to love yourself. You don't need to be perfect and you don't need to make any big descision right now.
I work at a college so I can honestly tell you it's rare for kids to enter into college and know what they want to do and if they do have a major picked, most kids will change that major several times. If you know where you are going to school, contact an admissions counselor. They can help you decide in which direction to start and what your school has to offer. They can also let you know what kind of counceling the school offers. Even if your not sure where your going to school, contact a local college admissions counselor. We have something called a campus visit where the kids get a tour of the school with a lot of helpful information. College students are there and will answer just about any question that you have.
I wish that I could take you in my arms and give you a big hug just like I do when my daughter is feeling down (which is often, she is having a rough time right now too). I am sending you a hug, gentle one though. I hope you feel better soon!!
I suppose if anything is different, its that I have learned to speak up some. I talked to my teacher yesterday, the one from last year who helped me through alot. I had to write notes to her because we had people in our class this time, but she came and talked to me some...she's gone on a trip right so we cant talk again until next week.
Also, last night I talked to my best guy friend. He was pretty caring when I told him everything.. Telling makes me feel a little better, but it cant take it all away so I suppose that part of why I dont like to talk about stuff...or maybe I just havent had success with talking things through or whatever.
Anyways, my point is that I talked about it to friends. And I feel a little better not holding it all in... Thanks for supporting me and giving me some courage to speak up once again