I haven't been around for a little bit because I've been so busy! I wanted to update everyone on how I am doing with Fibro and my first full time job.
I can honestly say it can be a challenge, but also sooo rewarding when I finish the day. I am very STRICT about
being ASLEEP by 11. I found that (through trial and error of course haha) 11 is my absolute limit... anything past that and I'm dead the next day. I also discovered that going out one night a week (home BY 10) really helps. I would have never guessed that... but being with good people on a good night is really essential. I am still keeping with a schedule of sleepytime habits including valerian root at 8, melatonin at 9, and a new favorite are showers or baths right before bed to relax. My heating pad is my best friend... I leave it on until my eyes get heavy then I turn it off and fall asleep to the residing heat!
I am working 8 hours everyday and about
9 on fridays.... I have found so much joy from the people I encounter and the people I work with. I feel like I am in this family and they have all welcomed my with
open arms. I also feel a sense of accomplishment because I get up every morning and complete tasks.... my brain feels so alive. I have to say that I did go through a time where my Fibro had all but consumed me, and I was laying around in bed all day everyday. My mental state is SOOO much better now!
I was so scared about
my Fibro fog in this new job. There was sooo much to learn and forgetting important things was just NOT okay. I prayed and I paced myself, and I DID IT! I have excelled in learning things, and have far surpassed my expectations.
I encourage everyone to learn and listen to their bodies. Talk to your Fibro, don't let it boss you around. It's there, but we STILL have control. I am in no way saying that this is easy.... but I am doing it! I have had a few bad days where the pain brought a tear to my eye at work. Those are the same days that a coworker made me laugh with a new work "inside joke"... the same day I helped an elderly lady figure out her account... the same day the sun shined outside and I got to
open my sun roof in my car on my lunch break and ride around!
I picked the brain of a friend with Fibro last week about
how to make this job work for me and my Fibro and she said EVERY hour ask yourself how you are doing and what you need. That has been helpful because sometimes I need to laugh, sometimes I need to pray, sometimes I need to close my eyes and de-stress, and sometimes I am okay right then.
Thank you all for being positive light... thank you all that when I think I can't do it I know I have this Fibro family appreciating these baby accomplishments that seem so normal to others. You all are wonderful and I hope you find this joy I have right now. In a year, 10years, even 6 months my Fibro may not allow this workload.... but NOW, TODAY I am doing it.