Fibromyalgia, Osteoarthritis, scoliosis, back problems, hypothyroidism.
Well Patti...I do like to go to the casino and early last evening the hubby asked me if I wanted to go. I had been battling a Meniere's attack for two days and by dinner time it was better so we decided to go. The hubby doesn't gamble so he goes for me. He sits in the lounge where the entertainment is and talks to friends he has met there...sometimes he grades tests. What were we thinking??? The casino on valentines day where they had sold 'sweetheart packages' etc...the parking garage was full as was the parking lot. We had to park where they keep the snowplows and it was a fifteen minute walk in 10 degree weather...of course I was not dressed properly...no hat or gloves...just a light coat never thinking we would have to walk that far. By the time I got inside I couldn't feel my legs...the skin felt like it had shriveled up around every muscle. I had to sit down in the hallway. Then we discovered there was a major heavy weight fight going on in the event center. It took us another fifteen minutes to wait in line to get down the escalator. I told him we just just go home. We had planned to eat dinner and the line was probably a quarter of a mile long. No...it was Valentine's Day and he wanted me to enjoy myself. It took me a half hour to find a machine...I sat next to a woman who smelled like horse lineament and behind two cigar smokers. I could NOT wait to get out of there.
Today I feel like a dozen trolls beat me with hammers while I slept...or half slept. So this is what we do for love. He would never go there if I didn't like to gamble once in awhile.(I usually go once a week with friends and just play with comps but last night I used real money and lost, of course!) In return I go fishing with him. Yuk and double Yuk but the scenery is beautiful so I just watch him not catch anything and enjoy just being with him.
((((((My sweet sweet FMily))))))
You always make me feel so much better.
And yes, I agree that we fibro-mites have a tendency to put others first. I don't think I would have wound up in the flare of a lifetime if I hadn't made my job my life. Being the director of a non profit community organization consumed me. I felt I HAD to put my community first... heck there were thousands of people that depended on me to make our area a better place to live. I did that for love of this community and for the people that live here. I did it to have a decent income for my family. I did it to make my family and friends proud of me. Some people said, a big job like that must be an ego boost. I never thought of it that way, I thought of it as community dedication.
So yes, this is one of the things I did for love. I don't regret a minute of it. But I'll never do anything like that again, because, as Daneille mentioned, now my "love of self" has got to come first. And once I can get myself better I can think about commiting myself to others, but I'll always remember that I have to live life differently now.
Marlee.. I remember the thread you started when Ken was in the hosp. It was incredibly touching. LOL, to you Donna, I didn't know you liked to hit the casinos so much.. any pointers?? ( I did win $1100.00 once playing roulette.. had no idea what I was doing.. but I knew I was winning!!). Patsie, my mom is a hoot alright.. she still smokes a pack a day, loves to gamble and her wine. Danielle, you really know how to put things into words - that's a wonderful gift!! Miriam, you're right - I have a wonderful husband and I adore him. Karen, thanks for the good luck wishes.. If I win any money I'll donate some to our Healing Well site.. But knowing me, I'll probably spend more time in the jacuzzi than on the casino floor.
Thanks again, my friends. You'll never know how special you are to me.
Hugs to all...
Post Edited (Sera Smiles) : 2/15/2009 8:35:08 PM (GMT-7)
OK,,, I'mmmm baaa-aack!!!
Had a nice time with the "girls" at the casino. And the part about the jacuzzi... yeah not so much. There wasn't a jacuzzi in the room Bummmm-mmmmer.
But things worked out pretty well, of course I won NUTHIN', but did some awesome grazing on the buffet. OINK!!! My sister won.. $400.00... grr lol only kidding.. I'm thrilled she won some money, she's disabled and she sure can use a few exta buck. Mom, well lets just say I must have her "luck gene".
I wanted to thank all of you for your post about love of community. Sera, yes!! I'd love to elaborate on non-profit careers. I didn't know we had that in common!!
Tyno, you are an amazing caregiver!
Lee Ann, you have my respect for the Emergency Service.. I couldn't do that, I can't handle emergecny situations too well... I totally freak out and as for the foster care.. high fives on that, no way could I do that. Once the kids were grown and gone, I was done with the motherly thing.
I was just starting to worry about you .. haven't seen much of you the last few days. I guess your cold had you down. Hope you're all better soon!!
First off (I wish I could have a bigger font size) Happy Birthday!!!!!! Ok.. geez.. I can't change the color back..LOL!!
So, I guess the rest will be in red..
Hey, if they're laid back .. don't bust your butt to have them over. (I know that's like the pot calling the kettle black) but really.. you're just getting over a cold.
Yeah, this snow storm thing stinks!! The wind has been really nasty too.. I was in a total white out yesterday but we only got about an inch.. the wind was whippin' those little squalls like mad. I don't blame your inlaws for not wanting to drive in it. And just enjoy 'em, they know they're kinda getting you off guard so don't worry too much about how the house looks. I hope you guys will still be able to have the party tomorrow.. you deserve a party!!!
Have fun... and a GREAT Birthday!!!!!