Oh Ginny, I feel your pain.
First of all, I always wanted to be a photographer when I grew up!! Problem is I never grew up.. ~ see I knew I could make you smile~.
My brother had a photography business, I know how much work it is. Having to keep up with the newest products in your industry is extremely expensive. He gave up his business a couple of years ago, but he also had a really good job, he was doing the photography thing on the side. Sometimes the people you have to deal with in the photog. biz are enough to make you want to give it all up... they can be very demanding.
I had a DJ business about 8 years ago. We did a lot of weddings and parties. Its alot like the photography business. We had to keep up with the newest music and equiptment. It was fun while it lasted (about 3 years) but the equiptment got to be too heavy for my hubby to deal with and we were spending more than we were making. It was hard to give it up but we did. I always felt kind of sorry for the photographers .. they had to be there the whole day.. we only had to do the reception part of the event and we WERE the party, so we always had to be up beat, even when we were having a bad day.
I've done some motivational speaking in my time.. the best advice I can give you is to go to a confrence or photo show, it might help motivate you to get going again.
I had to give up my career last Nov. because of Fibro and I couldn't handle the hours and work load. I don't know which was harder, accepting the fact that I couldn't handle the work I loved or the phase I'm in right now.. being unemployed in a down economy.
So no matter which way you turn you'll have some emotional & financial issues. Take your time, but remember, to do what's best for you.
Hope that helped a little.. and again, I do know what you're going through. I hope you can find your answer.
I feel for you Ginny-
I have not worked since last May and it has been heartbreaking. I worked long, hard hours, but for a good company and was finally making a "living." I had just qualified to buy a townhome (I have never owned a home- always rented) and I was so excited! I have raised two boys on my own and it took years to get where I was. Then the fibro hit like a ton of bricks and turned my world upside down.
I am battling Soc. Sec. Dis. and I am not sure what my future holds right now. I try to stay positive and I am taking one step and one day at a time. I have made it this far-
If this does not work out for you- I have noticed in my life that another door opens.
Know that we are here for you no matter what happens.