Depression, pain, and continuing withdrawal...

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SassyIsMyKitty
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   Posted 3/20/2009 7:40 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi everyone. I have been trying really hard to hang in there. My withdrawal symptoms are slowly getting better, which I am thankful for, but I still don't feel that great. I have been dealing with a lot of depression and pain. I just feel a little lost, a little alone, and a little overwhelmed. I have been doing my best to hang in there, but there are times when it is really hard. I just needed someone to talk to.
~MDD, Fibromyalgia, OCD, Anxiety Disorders, IBS, TMJ, Arthritis~
 
May your heart be filled with love and joy.
May your mind be clear and true.
May your smiles be many,
And may your tears be few. 
May God wrap you in His arms
Especially when you're feeling blue.


vestabula
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   Posted 3/20/2009 7:58 AM (GMT -7)   

Hi...I don't remember what you are trying to withdraw from...Cymbalta?  I am trying to wean myself off Lexapro and it is a nightmare...head zaps and headaches...It's not fun.  I guess we just have to hang in there.  The bad news I got from doc is that the head zaps can go on for a long time.  If I had known this when I started the stupid drug I would have never taken it.

Huggies

Donna


fibro, menieres disease, RLS, anxiety disorder, disc compression, scoliosis, spinal stenosis TMJ  Meds: Lexapro and valium


leemadd
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   Posted 3/20/2009 7:59 AM (GMT -7)   
Tiki, Hang in there you will get throughall of this. Sometimes I talk out loud to my self I actually say ok universe Im throwing this to you give me the answers I need. I no it seems odd but it does help. I usually feel better talking through things, I know sometimes you just need that human contact to help you through.
LeeAnn

SleepyBug
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   Posted 3/20/2009 9:04 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi, Tiki~

I'm having trouble remembering what you were withdrawing from, too...was it Lyrica? Gah-I'm so sorry-fibro brain!

Anyway, I did want to let you know that I am sorry to hear you're struggling. This dd can definitely leave you feeling lost and alone and ready to give up sometimes, no matter what meds you may or may not be on. Please know that we here all care for you very much and you can come vent to and lean on us anytime you need to.

I do hope you get to feeling better soon.

{{{{gentle hugs}}}}
love and hugs
~danielle


fibromyalgia, ibs, gerd, anxiety

We either make ourselves happy or miserable. The amount of work is the same.~Carlos Castaneda

I wish you all the joy that you can wish.~William Shakespeare

Housework, if you do it right, will kill you.~Erma Bombeck


pattipanda
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   Posted 3/20/2009 9:32 AM (GMT -7)   

Aww, Kitty!! 

Sorry you're having a rough time right now.  No matter what med you are coming off of it's hard.  I hope you're not in too much pain.  Feeling depressed and lonely is really hard, but you HAVE to keep trying!!  I feel the same way you do sometimes.  Sometimes its just for a day or two, other times it can go on for weeks, even months.  I can feel that lonely and depressed feeling even with people around, I don't know why, but it happens sometimes.

Just know there are alot of folks here that are your friend.  Come here as often as you like and just vent, talk/type, cry, do whatever you have to, to communicate. We're here for you!!

Hope that helps..

Big hugs, 


Patti
 
Fibormyalgia, 4x Lyme Disease Survivor, Depression, Anxiety Disorder, Dyslexia, 2 Lumbar Disk Herniations, Allergies, Bi-lateral Carpal Tunnel, Psoriasis. 
Meds = Elavil, Tramadol, Xanax, Lipitor
"Shoot for the moon, even if you miss, you'll land among the stars" - author unknown


SassyIsMyKitty
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   Posted 3/20/2009 9:57 AM (GMT -7)   
I am withdrawing from Xanax. I just got my first ER bill, and it is almost $1500. I am so upset about it. I need my insurance to kick in desperately. Please, for those of you who pray, please pray for me. Please pray that everything with my insurance will kick in and everything will be taken care of. I appreciate all you guys do for me. It is a help that you all just listen and offer comfort and advice, so thank you all for that.
~MDD, Fibromyalgia, OCD, Anxiety Disorders, IBS, TMJ, Arthritis~
 
May your heart be filled with love and joy.
May your mind be clear and true.
May your smiles be many,
And may your tears be few. 
May God wrap you in His arms
Especially when you're feeling blue.


getting by
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   Posted 3/20/2009 10:02 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi Tiki,

I am curious why you are going off of the xanax. I have been taking it for about 20 years. It still works well for me. Were you on it for anxiety? That is what I take it for.

I hope that you start to feel better soon and remember that we are always here for you.

Best wishes for a wonderful day.

Hugs, Karen
  Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia
 
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SassyIsMyKitty
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   Posted 3/20/2009 12:18 PM (GMT -7)   
I went off my xanax because my insurance went away for a while and I couldn't get another script, so I had to go off of it cold turkey. And after all the crap I have been going through, I don't plan on going on it ever again. I was on it for anxiety, but I admit that I abused them a little. I became and addict without meaning to. So, now I am recovering from it.
~MDD, Fibromyalgia, OCD, Anxiety Disorders, IBS, TMJ, Arthritis~
 
May your heart be filled with love and joy.
May your mind be clear and true.
May your smiles be many,
And may your tears be few. 
May God wrap you in His arms
Especially when you're feeling blue.


jewelrylady
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   Posted 3/20/2009 12:36 PM (GMT -7)   
Ah, Tiki that is really so easy to do, become addicted. We want to feel better & so what do we do to ourselves? Cause another problem. Bummer!!! I know it is hard to go off of something like Xanax, but you come here and post all you want. Even though you feel like you are alone, your not. We each have to go through our trials but we can have the others to encourage & help us. Venting is sometimes like a pressure release & if you have to post 10 times aday to vent, then that is what you need to do. We will be here to help. How long has it been? Do you have another medication to help you at all? Be strong. You can do this. Many soft & gentle hugs going your way, Denise

 I have:  Fibromyalgia, ME/CFS, Holt-Oram Syndrome, nasal allergies, food allergies, depression, TMJ, anxiety  Married to a wonderful supportive husband & between us we have 4 children & 7 grandchildren As apples of gold in silver carvings is a word spoken at the right time for it.    Prov. 25:11


Hello~Kitty
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   Posted 3/20/2009 3:56 PM (GMT -7)   
Kitty, I hope your being careful cause just last night when I went to one of my classes, they where talking about how withdrawaling off of some drugs can be deadly, and the only 2 that can be deadly are alchol and benzos, cause they can cause seizures (I beleive barbituates too). But it seems like you've gotten through the worse, cause the dangerous part is the first 48 hours, after that you should be fine. So anyone here who takes benzos (xanax, valium, klonopin, etc) should be tapered and not coldturky. The reason why I'm learning all this, is because someday when I have my nursing license, I hope to work with people in a inpatient rehab for drugs, dont ask me why, I just find it interesting. But I guess it's because I've seen friends who are doctors, teachers, people who you dont think have addictions have their lives ruined. But just remember I'm not calling you an addict, cause I know most if not all of us are not, but I thought you'd like to know that bit of information. But I understand you dont have insurance, but you really should of gone to a free or low income clinic, where I live we have 2 that gives you 90% off of your bill if you dont work, actually my mother works full time and they charge her $15 for an appointment. Just remember that benzos are not something to play around with, it's a matter of life or death.

-hellokitty
26 year old Female , single mother of 2 kids, on SSI for migraines, pain, pancreas issues
All the things broken with me: Migraines, Fibromyalgia, Chronic lower back pain that causes severe pain/numbness/tingling especially to my left leg, Genetic Pancreatic Divisum that causes chronic pancreatitas, Asthma, Depression w/Anxiety/panic attacks
Prescription Meds:Suboxone 24mgs daily, Cymbalta 60mg nightly, Lyrica 50mgs nightly, Imitrex as needed, Ibprofen 800 twice daily, Zanaflex as needed, Ventolin as needed for asthma attacks, Advair twice daily
Over the conter meds: Benadryl nightly for itching due to meds (not sure which one yet),
Surgeries: Gallbladder removed at 15 years old, 2 ERCPs, stent put in pancreas, countless upper GI scopes, Bartholin gland opened permanetly due to recurring painful cysts
Goals: to go to college next fall to be a nurse and get off of SSI
Wishful thinking: to not be in pain!!!


pattipanda
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   Posted 3/20/2009 4:47 PM (GMT -7)   

Hey there Kitty!!

I hope you're ok, it WILL get better. 

I'll say a prayer for you to get better care and insurance to cover your needs.  I know how difficult it is to get a huge hospital bill and you wonder what "money tree" are you going to pull that off of?! 

The best advice I can give you is try to find something to fill your time, it really helps.  Whether its reading, computer games, a new hobby, needlework... the list goes on forever.  I'm addicted to computer games, I can't do art or needle work because of my hands (LOL.. I'm about as artistic at a stick man, anyway) So, I try to keep my mind on something active and it helps. 

Take care,

 


Patti
 
Fibormyalgia, 4x Lyme Disease Survivor, Depression, Anxiety Disorder, Dyslexia, 2 Lumbar Disk Herniations, Allergies, Bi-lateral Carpal Tunnel, Psoriasis. 
Meds = Elavil, Tramadol, Xanax, Lipitor
"Shoot for the moon, even if you miss, you'll land among the stars" - author unknown


SassyIsMyKitty
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   Posted 3/21/2009 7:44 AM (GMT -7)   
Thank you everyone for your wonderful support and advice. Today is a MUCH better day. I think I am finally over the withdrawal. Thank the Lord for that! You are all so wonderful. I am truly blessed to have you all as part of my life. I just want to thank you all. It means a lot to me to know that I can come here and vent and let it all out and you all just listen and give support and advice.
~MDD, Fibromyalgia, OCD, Anxiety Disorders, IBS, TMJ, Arthritis~
 
May your heart be filled with love and joy.
May your mind be clear and true.
May your smiles be many,
And may your tears be few. 
May God wrap you in His arms
Especially when you're feeling blue.


GamJill
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   Posted 3/21/2009 8:12 AM (GMT -7)   

Tiki- Happy to hear you are feeling better! I have never come off of a drug like that, but I feel for you! I could cuss anytime I talk about "medical insurance" because it's like your example with coming off Xanax- you had to do it cold turkey! That should not have to happen! 

GamJill


 
 
Fibromyalgia, Depression, Anxiety, TMJ, Arthritis/neck, SAD
 
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SassyIsMyKitty
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   Posted 3/21/2009 3:19 PM (GMT -7)   
GamJill,
You are absolutely right! It has been such a pain not having insurance. I just got my first ER bill, and it was close to $1500. Everything will be back-payed once I get my insurance, but I am still really stressing about it. I can't get any of my meds because I don't have it right now. It has been really hard. And I really shouldn't have had to go off my Xanax the way that I did, but, oh well. All is good now. I am going to try to hit a few NA meetings maybe.
~MDD, Fibromyalgia, OCD, Anxiety Disorders, IBS, TMJ, Arthritis~
 
May your heart be filled with love and joy.
May your mind be clear and true.
May your smiles be many,
And may your tears be few. 
May God wrap you in His arms
Especially when you're feeling blue.


pattipanda
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   Posted 3/21/2009 4:37 PM (GMT -7)   

Hooray for YOU Kitty!!!  Sounds like you're doing better.. that's great!! yeah What's not great is this country's medical insurance problems.  It's just not fair that people, in the greatest country in the world, has so many problems with health care needs.. meanwhile we have some of the best doctors and hospitals.  Sorry not trying to sound political, just stating a fact.

Glad you're feeling better!!!

Big but gentle hugs!!


Patti
 
Fibormyalgia, 4x Lyme Disease Survivor, Depression, Anxiety Disorder, Dyslexia, 2 Lumbar Disk Herniations, Allergies, Bi-lateral Carpal Tunnel, Psoriasis. 
Meds = Elavil, Tramadol, Xanax, Lipitor
"Shoot for the moon, even if you miss, you'll land among the stars" - author unknown


SassyIsMyKitty
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   Posted 3/21/2009 7:13 PM (GMT -7)   
Health insurance is a big problem. It seems like people who need it the most are unable to get it. I just pray that everything will be fixed with mine shortly. My son needs his insurance too. Mine wasn't the only one taken away for a period of time, my son's was as well. He needs it. Next month he is due for his 18 month shots. He also needs to see his ear specialist again to see how his tubes are doing. He can't have any of that done without his insurance. This is all such a huge pain. My poor husband needs insurance as well. He has teeth problems and back problems. If you all could, could you please keep this in your prayers? I would really appreciate it if you would. Thanks.
~MDD, Fibromyalgia, OCD, Anxiety Disorders, IBS, TMJ, Arthritis~
 
May your heart be filled with love and joy.
May your mind be clear and true.
May your smiles be many,
And may your tears be few. 
May God wrap you in His arms
Especially when you're feeling blue.


Statgeek
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   Posted 3/21/2009 11:28 PM (GMT -7)   
Tiki, I am glad you are feeling better and hope your insurance kicks in soon. Will be praying for you, son and hubby, too.
Sue

SassyIsMyKitty
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   Posted 3/22/2009 7:25 AM (GMT -7)   
Thank you Statgeek. That really means a lot to me. Whenever anyone prays for me and my family, it just means the world to me. It shows that people really do care. It is always a blessing to know that there are people out there who care. It makes me feel less alone. So, thank you.
~MDD, Fibromyalgia, OCD, Anxiety Disorders, IBS, TMJ, Arthritis~
 
May your heart be filled with love and joy.
May your mind be clear and true.
May your smiles be many,
And may your tears be few. 
May God wrap you in His arms
Especially when you're feeling blue.


pattipanda
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   Posted 3/22/2009 8:25 AM (GMT -7)   
Sending you prayers and positive thoughts dear lady!!!

Patti
 
Fibormyalgia, 4x Lyme Disease Survivor, Depression, Anxiety Disorder, Dyslexia, 2 Lumbar Disk Herniations, Allergies, Bi-lateral Carpal Tunnel, Psoriasis. 
Meds = Elavil, Tramadol, Xanax, Lipitor
"Shoot for the moon, even if you miss, you'll land among the stars" - author unknown


AustenFan
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   Posted 3/23/2009 6:59 AM (GMT -7)   
((((((Hugs))))))
 
Austen
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SassyIsMyKitty
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   Posted 3/23/2009 3:36 PM (GMT -7)   
I just want all of you to know how much you all mean to me. I love you all. You are all just so very wonderful. Thank you so much for being here for me.
~MDD, Fibromyalgia, OCD, Anxiety Disorders, IBS, TMJ, Arthritis~
 
May your heart be filled with love and joy.
May your mind be clear and true.
May your smiles be many,
And may your tears be few. 
May God wrap you in His arms
Especially when you're feeling blue.

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