Post Edited (Grailhunter) : 4/15/2009 9:02:56 AM (GMT-6)
I had agoraphobia in my early 20's and it was a nightmare. Mine was from anxiety- like Grailhunter stated, it was to avoid anxiety triggers. And it was sheer panic almost 24/7.
I do not have it now, but when my pain and fatigue is bad I don't want to do anything or go anywhere either. Most the time I find though if I stay busy and get a walk in or just keep moving the pain and fatigue is better. I do take a rest late morning and late afternoon whenever I can and that also seems to help. The winter was awful. I don't want to go anywhere when it is cold, just hibernate. And the pain and fatigue was awful. Now that the milder temps are here I am starting to feel better and then I feel like doing a little more.
Hope that will be the same for you-
Post Edited (Grailhunter) : 4/15/2009 4:35:20 PM (GMT-6)
While in University several decades ago, in abnormal psyche, we talked about a concept called "learned helplessness". Basically if a series of adversive events are presented to an organism, serially, the animal/organism will just give up. Sort of like the orphans who experience a syndrome of "failure to thrive". After the pain takes so much away, the uncertainty of whether you'll be functional the next day, and at what cost, becomes real, and dashes hope. This is the part where we are supposed to reach down, grab the bootstraps, and pull like ----. Well, sometimes I just don't have the strength to keep it up.
I have hurt so badly, after a days work, I could not make food. I couldn't get to the kitchen, much less to bed. I would hurt so bad all over heck, it hurt to think. How in the name of samuel adams was I to get up and do it all over the next day, and perhaps the next. I got so I couldn't do it anymore. I contemplate getting back to work, but I can't seem to be able to figure out what I can do where people won't expect me, when they expect me.