Sorry to hear your having depression. It is not a good place to be. And there is no need to apologize because you have not been here in awhile- life gets busy and BOY have you been busy! Please DO see the Dr. re: the depression. My sister is "The Rock Of Gilbraltar", and has never had depression, nor has taken anti-depressants but because of numerous things happening in her life, she went to see her Dr. and got started on one. It has helped her cope. Sometimes life gets to be too much and we need help. There is no shame in that.
Nice to hear from you and let us know how you are doing when your able to- we care!