Post Edited (Sherrine) : 6/19/2009 1:24:10 PM (GMT-6)
Lola, she might have been afraid of your reaction so she kept it a secret all that time. My Mom and I were very close and shared most everything but I didn't tell Mom EVERYTHING and I'm sure she didn't tell me everything either. It wasn't necessary. But the one thing we didn't keep secret is that we loved each other very much. Sounds like that's what you have with your Mom.
Just give it up. You won't be able to figure it out and it will drive you bonkers. That was the past and you now need to look to today and the future. You are so fortunate to have each other.