Post Edited (libertykitty) : 8/9/2009 4:00:43 AM (GMT-6)
Sandi, you have been through a lot. It is frustrating knowing that you know things but you just can't pull them out. I get frustrated, too, but most of the time I just accept the fact that it's fibro. I might as well, since there isn't anything I can do about it.
I had excellent grades throughout school and college and taught school before I started raising a family. I know I am not dumb but, when I had to check my checkbook to give someone my phone number, it does make you wonder!
My fog is worse when I'm in more pain. I'll have good times and bad times with the cognitive memory issues. Sometimes it amazes me what I remember and other times I can't remember a word. I know the word, it's on the tip of my tongue, but I can't pull it out and I used to feel so stupid. My friends would look at me like I was getting senile (I'm 62) and I even had a friend suggest to me to start doing brain exercises. That's embarrassing. But, I explained that this is caused by a cognitive memory problem associated with fibromyalgia and that shut them up. They don't question me now. That worked wonders!
I do have a positive outlook on life. I do hope for the best...even though my life operates under Murphy's Law. I just keep moving forward and keep hoping for the best and it does help the pain and I rarely have any depression because of it. As I said before, since I can't control what is going on, it's just best for me and my pain to let it go and move forward.