Mamanan, why don't you email me. My address is in my profile.
When I don't have answers and feel most out of control, I'll go on, what become exhaustive and obsessive online searches for diagnoses. It pretty much always produces more anxiety, inevitabley causing my symptoms to worsen. The fact that I don't have a lot of trust in most doctors only makes it tougher. What Sherrine said about "her anxiety congering up the worst possible things in her mind and her body being ready to cooperate" really hit home for me. It helps so much to see that I'm not the only one that's done this.
((((Mamanan)))), I send you warm hugs and thoughts for calming relief from the anxiety and pain. The answers will come. Wow, do I ever understand feeling a loss of faith. It sometimes helps me when I think of the human experience as being like "school". Every bit of what we see as suffering and joy, for that matter, is part of the curriculum.