Hi everyone. I haven't written on here for a while, but I'm back.
I don't know if anyone else has had issues with their job and fibromyalgia, or depression and FM. I've been battling terrible depression for at least a month now, and I've almost attempted suicide. I work retail, in a job that requires me to always be "on", and I find it's a struggle to even go to work and stay standing, much less keep a smile on my face. I feel like everyone at my job resents me, I know they talk about me behind my back, and it just worsens my depression. I feel like I can't do anything anymore. They took away my duties that I loved doing, so I now feel like I'm completely incompetent and useless there. The last straw was when my boss pulled me in today to write me up for "bad attitude." I am grouchy sometimes but how can you not be when it takes all your energy to just get to work? I feel bad because I've been mean to my boyfriend. My family really doesn't support me. I can't lower my hours because I need my benefits, but full-time hours are killing me. I feel like I'm at the end of my rope. I've had a very difficult year: I broke up and moved out of a place I shared with my boyfriend of 3 years, my cat had to be put to sleep, I've had two car accidents, the list goes on and on. I feel like I'm complaining all the time and that I'm a burden on everyone. Please give me some advice to deal with this. By the way, I'm taking gabapentin, elavil, levothroid, yasmin, and my doctor wants to put me on Cymbalta. Could anyone tell me what this drug is like? I also try to do acupuncture every two weeks, and was doing bellydancing until my school interfered with it. I'm 25 and don't want to do anything I'll regret.