First of all, I don't think you offended anyone. You didn't offend me. I think we all have had denial at one time or another. But the sooner you accept this illness the sooner you can look it straight in the face and beat it at it's game.
Not being able to get a good night's sleep is one of the problems with fibro. Also, we rarely get in a deep, REM sleep where our bodies start to heal. I'm up at least three times a night and some nights as many as five times. Sometimes I'll be asleep and my eyes will pop open! Boom, I'm awake. I've had nights where this has happened around ten times...on top of getting up all the other times! I know I'm not getting enough rest but that's fibro for you.
You need to get on a sleep schedule, too. If you have to leave that early, you probably need to get up around 5:30 AM. If that is accurate, you really need to go to bed around 9 PM. If you do this then your body will become accustomed to that and you should be able to fall asleep quickly. I'm usually up by 6:30 AM so I'm in bed by 10 PM most every night.
Try not to think too much if you do wake up. I was going, and still am, through a rough time and if I started mulling that around in my mind, I not only would get upset but also I could kiss sleep good bye! I am a praying person. I found that if I didn't fall back to sleep quickly, praying for family and friends really helped. It relaxes me and makes me peaceful and then I fall asleep. You might try that too.
Also, many with fibro have depression because of the chronic pain issue. It can be depressing but you need to focus on the things you can do and not the things you can't do. We all have many blessings so we need to look at those. It really does help.
Taking things a day at a time helps a lot, too. Don't project yourself in the future because none of us know what the future holds anyway. Why worry over something that may never happen? That's not easy but it can be done. I struggle with this sometimes, too.
But, stick with us and ask questions. We are all in this together and we can have a full and enjoyable life in spite of this illness. I know I have!
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