Because of this most recent bout of snow, ice and wind chills, my son is not likely to be coming home this wkend, and I'm not sure when he'll be home if this keeps up. I've been contemplating driving to Mississippi to get him, as I have more experience driving in snow and ice than my ex and his family. But at the same time, it would be stupid of me to attempt a cross country drive with the weather the way it is. I feel as though a part of me is missing, I wander my house feeling as though I've forgotten something, my dog following me and then my husband tells me we both have that "Lost puppy" look. To make it worse, my son got sick for the first time away from me. Just an ear infection which has healed, but when I first found out they told me they were giving him Tylenol and Motrin... my son's allergic to ibuprofen, had they given him a second dose he'd have broken out in a rash and then within 10 minutes his breathing would have shut down. I know from being in labor for 5 moz, that their home is 45 min from any hospital. I've given them an up-to-date and detailed list of all his allergies as well as his medical record. It is so frustrating dealing with people who I feel are too incompetent to take care of a fern, let alone my son, and know that there is nothing that I can do at this time due to lack of finances. It's a a bad situation all the way around, and I feel so helpless so hopeless. But before I stumble down the rabbit hole of depression, I need to go take a hot bath, make a few scrapbook pages and take a buspar.
Thank you for letting me Vent, my husband just says "Why are you surprised? They do this every time." true as that may be, it doesn't change how it makes me feel.
Any idiot can face a crisis - it's day to day living that wears you out.
My train of thought derailed long ago, now I take the bus, few more stops, but I eventually get there.
FM, costocontritis, wide spread arthritis, fibroid tumors, PTSD, 2 heart attacks at 22, PID
Buspar 10mg, Acetometaphen 500mg, Zantac 150mg, B-complex, Tramadol 150mg