Terrible Thursday (ranting)

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TheChickenPrincess
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   Posted 7/22/2010 5:01 PM (GMT -7)   
This has been a bad day.

This is the first day off of antibiotics after 17 days on them. The dentist wanted me to go off to see if an infection returns. I'm already on pins and needles about that because he's not back in his office until Monday. If I need help before then, my only option will be my g.p. on Friday. So I've been nervous anticipating this weekend. But that's only part of the story ....

Today I had to take mom to two doc appointments. I've explained elsewhere that I end up taking care of her to the point that I'm killing myself. In the second appointment, which was a follow up on the hospital stay she had the week before, she started having rapid heartbeat. They put her in a treatment room for 2-2.5 hours hooked up to an ekg and other stuff. It isn't a heart attack, or stroke. So that's all good - he's re-adjusting her meds and all should be fine again. However, in the midst of this, my stress levels started to get me. Add that I hadn't eaten enough today - making it worse.

When we got done there - there were tornado warnings. We barely made it to a local grocery store when the downpour hit so hard you couldn't see your hand in front of your face. I was driving of course. Sheer terror is all I could feel. I made it into the parking lot somehow. I dropped her at the door so she wouldn't get too wet - but I had to park. The moment I opened my door, it was like someone had turned the firehose on me. It was storming so badly that I ran as hard as I could for the door. My legs were killing me, but it was the only option.

Once inside, I started getting cold - I looked like I'd been dunked in a pool - I was that wet. We rode out the worst of the storm inside the store. My chest hurt, and I felt like I couldn't get enough air in my sinuses for a while. Not sure if that was just fear, or what.

Trying to get home, ditches that I've never seen water in were flowing like white water rapids. Roads were partially underwater - and we had to turn around a few times to find a safe way past.

My tension levels went out of this world.

Once home, the power was out. It just came back up.

I have so much pain and am feeling terribly sick. I can't tell if the pain in my right cheek is migraine pain, or if I should be freaking out that the stupid tooth is becoming infected. :(

This has been a monumentally bad day. I really wish this sort of stuff would stop. I guess I should try to eat so I don't get even worse, but I sure don't feel like it.

Thanks for letting me rant.

Acheybody
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   Posted 7/22/2010 5:05 PM (GMT -7)   
Ugh, I should say you've had a bad day! Face pain is the pits! Can you just relax and be nice to yourself tonight?
Achey
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TheChickenPrincess
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   Posted 7/22/2010 5:33 PM (GMT -7)   
That's about all I can do tonight - is take it very slow. There's a line of storms coming all night, so I'm not sure how restful it will be. Thanks for being there. I just needed a friendly voice, you know?

Libby08
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   Posted 7/22/2010 5:39 PM (GMT -7)   

Sorry you had such an awful day.  I agree with Achey, be good to yourself tonight.  I will say a prayer for you that the tooth does ok too.  Soft hugs.......Tomorrow will be a better day.


TheChickenPrincess
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   Posted 7/22/2010 5:54 PM (GMT -7)   
Thank you, Libby. I really appreciate it. *hugs* back at you. I better log off now - storms picking up again.

sotiredoffibro
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   Posted 7/22/2010 6:06 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi Princess just wanted you to know Im sorry you had such a bad day. I hope the tooth doesnt become infected again. Hopefully you will be able to get some good rest tonight.
Gentle Hugs
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livenlaugh
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   Posted 7/22/2010 6:37 PM (GMT -7)   
So sorry that you had a yucky day. Try to put ice or heat, whatever feels better to you, on your cheek. I finds that it makes it feel better. Take some advil and take care of yourself. I had my root canal today and everything seems ok. I am a little sore in my mouth and tired from stressing and tensing up. But it needed to be done. Hope your pain goes away and try to sleep.
Hugs Lisa

MinnyMouse
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   Posted 7/22/2010 7:02 PM (GMT -7)   
Hey Princess, looks like you are living my life today.. I don't know where you live but the storms here today have really been bad. My basement flooded, my garage flooded and the water is still coming it. I had taken it as eas as I could all dayand when that hit my body went into overdrive to get everything off the basement floors... Finally about colasped when my hubby told me to go to bed. He just told me that almost everything is going to have to go to the dump. ....So I did some deep breathing , took my meds for the night and am going to bed. Whatever happens I will deal with it tomorrow.

I will keep you in my prayers as I lay down to sleep. So glad you are here . Tomorrow's Another Day.

Sleep as well as you can.
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KellieJo
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   Posted 7/22/2010 8:14 PM (GMT -7)   
That is a bad day........when I have a bad day I always tell myself tomorrow will be better and try to cheer myself up.

TheChickenPrincess
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   Posted 7/22/2010 8:27 PM (GMT -7)   
Thanks, KellieJo, I'll give that a try.

Minny, I'm sorry about your flooding. I bet we're in the same region. Even the weather channel had us on for a while tonight. They said we got 4 inches of rain in 30 minutes at the time I was running for the grocery store entrance. Now there have been an additional 4 more inches at least since then. I'd be happy to tell you (or anyone else here)privately where I am, but I just don't post it on the forum for privacy reasons. Not sure how to message others though. Hope you're all safe and dry there now. Thanks for the prayers, will do the same for you.

Lisa, I'm so glad your root canal is over. It sounds like the aftermath is tolerable. That's good to know. I know just what you mean about being tired from tensing up. Thanks for the kind words.

Shirley, thanks for the kindness. I really appreciate it.

I am not doing quite so badly now. In fact, I'm sorry I ranted when I was in such a bad frame of mind. I think the cheek pain is a migraine - it is feeling a lot like they usually do for me, and it is coming and going. I could see my g.p. tomorrow morning and might do so just to be on the safe side. Thank you for putting up with me. It helps so much to hear from people who understand and actually care.

*gentle hugs* to each of you.

Statgeek
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   Posted 7/22/2010 10:14 PM (GMT -7)   
I hope that tomorrow is better for you.
Soft hugs,
Sue

livenlaugh
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   Posted 7/23/2010 4:26 AM (GMT -7)   
Don't worry about ranting. That is what we are here for. So you can let go. I hope that you have a better day today. I am happy that your tooth isn't acting up. Email me anytime you need to talk.
Take care
Lisa

Sherrine
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   Posted 7/23/2010 8:30 AM (GMT -7)   
Antibiotics I have heard remain in your system for several days after your last dose so you need to stop all the worrying.  You will be fine until you see your dentist on Monday.  Don't let your mind control those thoughts because you can take on the symptoms of things, too.  I know I used to when I suffered with a lot of anxiety.
 
I wish I had a magic answer for all of you that suffer from extreme anxiety.  I have been through that but learned how to control it because it was controlling me.  I'm very stubborn, you see. 
 
Chick, just about everything in your post was anxiety-driven and that is horrible.  I feel so bad for you.  It's a rotten feeling and the tension that anxiety causes can be causing a lot of your pain.  Really try to relax and shut your mind down or get it focusing on other things.  You will feel better for it.  Recognize when you start feeling the anxiety welling up in you and dismiss it.  Take some deep, cleansing breaths, blow the air out slowly and find something to take your mind off whatever is causing the anxiety to kick in.  It does take practice but it can be done.  I do hope you are having a much better day today.
 
Sherrine
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God does not give us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.    2 Timothy 1:7


AKMamaBear
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   Posted 7/23/2010 11:36 AM (GMT -7)   
Rant away! Sometimes it's all we have left. I do hope the sun has come to shine on you, if only to brighten you day.

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TheChickenPrincess
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   Posted 7/23/2010 1:15 PM (GMT -7)   
Thanks Sherrine and MamaBear,

I'm not good enough at shutting down my fears and anxiety yet. I try. I brought along my needlework to her appointments, and the whole while her machine's alarm was going off in the treatment center, I kept deep breathing and doing more of my needlework. I am very good at putting on a calm face for those around me. Inside though, it is really hard to shut off what these situations do to me. I meditate and do deep breathing, I do believe it can be overcome - but I'm not all the way there yet. Living in my circumstances, it is a challenge to stay on top of it.

If anyone saw the weather channel with the pictures of that suv stuck in a sink hole with a bunch of traffic lights, that's the weather I was experiencing yesterday in the white-out of rain while driving and running for the store on foot.

The physical act of taking her to her appointments is always hard on me, but running and exerting myself so much physically was over the top.

My doctor talked to me this morning about the tooth. She left an rx at the pharmacy to start antibiotics in case the swelling comes up while they're all closed for the weekend.

Sherrine
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   Posted 7/23/2010 2:42 PM (GMT -7)   
It takes time and practice to get a grip on anxiety but it sure sounds like you are on the right track!  You'll get in control of the anxiety because you are really trying to do that.
 
As I said previously, I wish I could explain better what I did.  I'm very stubborn.  Mom said I was like that from day one.  She never worried about my getting involved with drugs, etc. in college because she knew I wouldn't do anything I didn't want to do. 
 
That stubborness has paid off in my life.  I research everything and once I make up my mind about something, I don't generally budge.  I was on Valium and practically dopey with it.  I hated it and it was changing my personality, too.  I finally had had it.  I stopped taking the medication and decided I would handle it myself.  I knew what anxiety felt like when it was creeping up on me and I also knew it was fear that was causing it.  But, I really didn't have anything to be THAT afraid of....nothing was going to kill me...except perhaps the anxiety!  shocked    So, whenever I would feel that feeling, the heart pounding, the shortness of breath, the feeling limp, etc., I'd say to myself that I was not going to deal with another anxiety attack!  I reminded myself that I had really nothing to fear, I was safe, I knew how to take care of myself.  I then did the Lamaz breathing, the short, panting breaths and then blowing the air out.  I did the deep breathing and slowly blowing the air out.  Then I would get busy doing something so I didn't have to think.  I tried to do things that I had to think about while doing.  This would take my mind off the anxiety and I would realize that I was feeling a little better. 
 
I kept doing this and it got easier and easier to control and now I rarely deal with anxiety.  It helps even when my adrenalin kicks in over something.  I can calm myself down.  All I know is I wasn't about to let my emotions make me miserable and run my life.
 
So, keep trying.  You will beat this!  If I could do it, so could anyone else.  It's great not worrying a lot.  I feel so much freer and it's one less thing to disrupt my life.  I'll be praying that you get a handle on it soon!
 
Sherrine
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God does not give us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.    2 Timothy 1:7


TheChickenPrincess
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   Posted 7/24/2010 7:53 AM (GMT -7)   
Sherrine you should be pretty darned proud of what you accomplished for yourself. I'm going to get there - but like I said, I haven't quite reached it yet. I'm a big believer in this method.

There was a great episode of Scientific American Frontiers years ago called Worried Sick - it included a lot of info and a demo of the Relaxation Response by Dr. Herbert Benson. It included mri and other tests on people who meditate for their religious practices - and showed the differences in their brains, literally. They even studied the yogis of the east. It was completely fascinating. It showed me the power of this practice. I'm not there yet - but I'll get there. It is hard work, but so worth it.

Thanks again.

Oh - here is a link to the show. I used to give out this url a lot, but I was on a forum where people were more interested in better living through chemistry and they tended not to be interested in this.
http://www.pbs.org/saf/1310/video/watchonline.htm
www.pbs.org/saf/1310/video/watchonline.htm

This link is related to the first:
www.pbs.org/saf/1310/segments/1310-4.htm

Post Edited (TheChickenPrincess) : 7/24/2010 8:58:38 AM (GMT-6)

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