Chris, I have hep C and was getting sonograms (ultrasounds) every year to keep an eye out for problems. The only thing that showed up were a couple of "lesions" from the hep C. This went on for years. However, about 2 yrs. ago, my ultrasound showed a HUGE tumor in my liver. I really think this might've been missed the previous year, because after it was discovered I had many ultrasounds and MRIs, and they never showed much tumor growth. Of course, I knew I was at risk for liver cancer, due to the hep C, but never really expected it to happen to me.
I was diagnosed with hep C back in '93. At that time, I had 6 years of sobriety in AA. I now have nearly 22 years without a drink. I KNOW I would be dead were I still drinking all those years. No doubt about it. The fact that you are worried about your liver from your heavy alcohol use tells me that you know you should quit.
Please get yourself to an AA meeting. They are held all over the world, and can be found in phone books under Alcoholics Anonymous. I can't say whether you have cirrhosis now, but I can guarantee you that you will if you continue to drink. You are playing roulette with your life. So please take this seriously, as it is a serious issue. Every drink you take is injuring your liver.
Chris, My husband had alot of minor symptons that were missed. He worked 2 jobs so many things were attributed to lack of sleep and poor diet. A friend of mine also had same issues and both men sober for many years. My friend collapsed at work bleeding internally when then discovered he needed a transplant because of advanced chirrosis 4 months later he got his transplant. My hubby got an infection that wouldnt clear up and ended out on life support for 17 days 3 weeks in the hospital they discharged him with advice to see a doctor. He was diagnosed 3 months later with chirrosis. All the time in the hospital with many tests and ultrasounds etc, they missed it cause labs were only off a "little" ! I say be carefull and stop the drinking. You would be surprised who you will find in an AA meeting so dont worry about your reputation or your families reputation that is just an excuse to not go. Sorry to sound harsh but only you can take care of you. Lets think about it which choice shall you make, the slight possibility of someone knowing you go to AA or the possibilty of everyone watching you die. Read the posts in this site dont breeze through them really read them. This site is full of people struggling with thier own illness or their loved ones. You will find support and information that you can use.
Chris, I agree with Sue. Upper echelon types also go to AA meetings, including well-known entertainers and news anchors. That is why it is "anonymous." (Thus the slogan, "What you hear here and who you see here, stays here.") If you see someone there you know--they are there for the same reason as you. At the very least, you could find a meeting in a neighboring town, or buy a copy of Alcoholics Anonymous ("the Big Book") and "12 Steps and 12 Traditions." These are available online. There are, in fact, even online meetings that are run like real meetings. If you want help with your drinking problem, the help is available.
If you knew for sure that you had cirrhosis, would you stop drinking? Could you stop? Why not just do it as insurance before your liver damage goes that far? It's just good sense.
You don't have to go to an AA meeting in your community. You can go to a meeting in a near by community. I dare you to try it. I bet you will find a whole room full of people that have the same problems as you! Screw community status this is your life. If you could talk to my husband for 10 minutes he would tell you he would give anything to go back and quit drinking sooner. He has been so sick for so long he is tired of fighting. Just take it one day at a time and find someone to talk to you trust. PLease Please try. I promise you will be so glad you did. I will pray for you.