Ohhh Mimi, I am so sorry. You must be worn to a frazzle.
It's time to start recharging your batteries. Take a little time here an there for you. I am not talking about hours and hours. I use to go for walks around our property. I helped calm me down and cleared my head. Take bubble baths or read magazines. Just anything that you like, to take your mind off of your reality for brief periods of time. For your own good and your husbands, you need to take care of yourself too. If you get sick, you will be no help to him.