I don't think I can keep doing this. I sit in this house day by day and watch him just get worse and worse. He sleeps all of the time. He is barely drinking now and never eats.How much thinner can he get? What is god waiting for.Why cant he just take him away from this horrible suffering. He says he is not in pain but I know he is miserable. I cannot stand this. There is nothing I can do . I read the posts of others getting transplants and dont get me wrong I am thrilled for each and everyone,but I want that for him. I do not understand why it drags on so. When hospice comes in the morning,I am out the door,I just have to get away.I have no where to go but it doesn't matter. I try to stay busy doing anything so I dont just sit here and watch him. He is still sleeping in the bed and I am afraid to go to sleep. He might pass in the nite and I not know it. I couldn't bare it. I feel like I have been grieving for 9 months and it just continues forever. I t seems like there ought to be something someone can do. This is unbearable.I want to help him but I don't know how.