Allie, you are not selfish. You have given more of yourself than should be expected.
Yes, when released she probably will start drinking again. She is still not admitting that she has a big problem with alcohol. I'm concerned about the pain she is feeling. That tells me that the infection is still there. They probably need to try a different antibiotic. At least that would keep her there longer, though unfortunately the end result will probably be the same due to her drinking.
Do remember to take care of yourself.
I am going in to see mymum today. When I saw her on Sunday, she was sitting up bright and cheery, said she felt great and is desperate to get home. She want to know if she cant get the antibiotics at home,Iknow she is probably pestering them. The confusion is gone, she is being too smart if you know what i mean....she still has a line in and get blood taken constantly, she took a plaster off and the blood was spraying everywhere, nurses had to clean the walls and floors. should that still be happening?? she has been up walking a bit with the zimmer she does ok.
I am getting that dreaded feeling again,no mention of drink at all. In my heart i feel that she will be back on the drink and all this is in vain. You would think I would be used to it by now. if only ....that would be great.
Allie, Unfortunately I don't think we ever get us to it. I think we just know them to well and our gut instincs are usually right. That terrible fear that over comes us the knot in our stomach we feel, all we can do is pray that today is sober and that they will not pick up that drink.
Last night I had that fear while I was at work and hubby was on his way home. I was wondering if he stopped to buy beer, was he drunk,was he sober? I just hoped for the best and when I got home he was there and thank God, Sober.
I wish you and your mum alot of luck. Be brave and take care of yourself too.
WG, it's good to see you posting. How are you doing, sweetie?
do you ever get the urge to email her even though she is gone. i still have the urge to call my mom and have even picked up the phone to call her and then realize i cant. i can honestly say i never knew i would miss her this much. when she was on the drugs and alcohol i would think life would be easier when she is dead and now that she is i am like i would give anything to get her back. on her birthday(this past january 5) i celebrated it even though she wasnt here by dancing and singing carrie underwood songs and no housework. i think i will do something every year for it. in 3 days it will be my father in laws birthday and first one with him gone to from this same disease.
today at work my employee asked me if i ever smoked weed and i said hell no. i watched what drugs did to my mom. i told him i watched my mom die a horrible death from a horrible disease and i will not do that to my c hild. he said weed will not hurt and i told him that i think it will and i refuse to indulge in such behaviors.