ok sorry got busy but here is her story. it may be long.
when i was born she was addicted to drugs,heroin i believe and it was hard but my grandparents raised me. my earliest memory is when i had a ear infection and my grandma was coming to get me from visitation with my mom and my mom gave me a choice to stay home from school or go with my grandma and go to doctor and go to school. well i loved school then so i chose school. well my mom was angry and the next day she called to talk to my grandma but she wasnt there and she hung up on me. she denied it but she did. when i was eight she cleaned up and i went to stay with her and my sister and things were great. we did things together and became a family. i started to trust her again even though i didnt want to. well when i was sixteen she started drinking but it was only a little at the time. by the time i was seventeen she was stealing money and things from me to pay for her crack and alcohol addiction but she blamed my cousins who were living with us and i believed her because they were trouble makers. well i went to florida with my hubby that year to meet his dad and when i came back my mom had fled with my sister to athens to get away from drug dealers. later on my mom fled back home to escape drug dealers from athens. then one day she did a hit and skip but no charges were filed but she lost her liscense. her jobs were off and on depending on how bad the drugs were. on new years eve her, my sister, and my sisters boyfriend came to stay the night at our house and while we were sleeping my mom stole my hubbys car. in the morning we realized it and we called the police. my hubby gave me the choice on whether to file charges on her but the police said since they didnt catch her in it there was nothing we can do to her which saved me from making that choice. to this day i dont know what my choice had been. Later that week my hubby found a crackpipe in his car. we banned her from the house. oh yeah she had previously stolen money, alcohol, and medicine from us to. when we got married she was at our reception where she stole cards that had money but we h ad no idea until people asked us if we got their cards later on. by then my mom had lost ties with most of our family. she had taken my grandmas car and gave it to drug dealers temporarily to pay for her drugs and my grandpa had to go get the car back. when my grandparents died she gave everyone hell so most my uncles cut her off. she became homeless for a while and got clean off of drugs but continued to drink. the shelter helped get her a apartment cause my mom was good at fooling people into believing she quit drinking and drugs. then that went to hell and she almost bled to death one day because of a old scar tissue coming loose from a hysterectomy when she was younger.
she lost the apartment and went to another apartment then moved in with a boyfriend. she kept drinking and almost cost me my promotion because she was drinking beer in my car without my knowledge. how did i not know, she put alcohol in a fast food cup and i didnt check it at that time. one more time she snuck it in the backseat and i had to make her throw it out w hen i caught her drinking. then one day she just seemed to stop drinking and then she had to have gallbladder surgery and then she told me about
the cirrhosis. well a year later she tells me about
the hep c diagnosis but by then her blood levels were really bad and she was jaundiced and was at the hospital every other day or week for almost a month until i found this site and stepped in with her care.
a year after finding out about
the hep c my mom had a perforated ulcer and had to go in for surgery and when she woke up she was not there mentally didnt know people, was not coherent and kept asking for her parents. we had her transferred and then she started leaking fluid out of her eyes, nose, mouth, ears, and her incision so they had to do another surgery and she had only a fourty percent chance of survivng. she came ou t but never woke up. a few days before her surgery her urine output was low and the urine was extremely dark and i told the doctors her kidneys were gonna fail but they said that they werent. the next day after surgery she was fine but that night she developed another infection and her liver and kidneys failed and her heart was gonna fail so i had to go to the hospital to have them pull her off life support in which she died ten minutes later.
because of the alcohol and drugs my mom lost most her family, lost me in a way as i didnt trust her and never would even though i still helped her she lost out on some good times with me. with the hep c i started to regain some sort of a relationship but i lost out on a mother. i felt abandoned and in some ways i still do. but i do feel i learned alot from all t his and maybe my story will help someone here. i would love to hear comments if you so wish if not at least i got it out here.
The only person who can make you happy is you. Be your own self and love who you are because each and every one of you are wonderful for who you are