hi guys. i been reading your posts and my heart aches so bad for you guys. i wish their was something i can do to help. i have been where you guys are now and it isnt fun. i share your pain cause my mom was a alcoholic to and put us through so much pain and heartache and now i see you guys suffering what i have. Allie, your mom has made her choice and still continues to drink even though it is killing her and now it seems the hospitals have given up on her but she i feel has given up on herself and there is nothiing you can do about it. NC your mom has literally drank herself til she is at her end to where she cant even drink. i know that is hard and it is hard to watch and i know how you feel.
Right now you guys need to find a way to let go of your anger and guilt. it is not your fault and anger is only going to hold you back. you should try to find it in your hearts to forgive them for their sins as when they do pass on it wont weigh heavy on your hearts but dont do it for your mom do it for yourself. At this point in time though it is a decision whether to stay in their life and suffer or take a step back and either choice is not a bad choice. Say what you feel and get it off your chest but let go of the anger. it is hard and it took me a long time but i did. i know my story is slightly different cause my mom quit drinking but remember she did put me through a lot of hell to before she did.
i wish i could just take both of you in my arms and give you a big hug and tell you it will all be ok.
The only person who can make you happy is you. Be your own self and love who you are because each and every one of you are wonderful for who you are
"No one really dies because they have loved. Because they love they stay in the hearts of the people they have touched so in that their memory lives on." Ghost whisperer-i know corny but this touched me deep down and i see so much truth in it.