Daddysgirl, please try to get some grief counseling through Hospice or another agency. You really do need to talk about your feelings with those who have been there. There really is nothing that would have changed the dire outcome with your father, since he chose to keep drinking. There is nothing more that you could have done. Please find comfort in knowing that he is at peace now.
i also lost a parent due to hep c and cirrhosis, or i should say complications from it, and no there is nothing more you could have done. one day my mom seemed to be getting better,(although i could tell she was deteriorating), and acting healthy to the next day in the hospital with emergency surgery and then dying a week later. the time she died it was unexpected and i was shocked. i felt that there was more i could do but i was so preoccupied trying to follow her wishes(seeing that my sister wasnt ready for this) and then planning the funeral that i was in a state of shock and couldnt grieve. i still feel as if i could have done some more but that is getting easier and i am slowly seeing i have done all i can do.
just know your dad is still with you. I have a new saying and even though its in my signature im gonna say it again. "no one really dies for they have loved. because they have loved they live on in the hearts of everyone they have touched and therefor there memory lives on."
It's good to see you here, WG. I have been thinking about you recently and wondering how you are doing.
Maria, I am glad your father came to you and that you have a little bit of closure. It will help your heart to heal.
Hello Daddys girl..
My husband passed away March 7th 2010 from Esld caused from drinking-- he was in denial and refused to sign the DNR-- when he was to the point where death neared and he was unable to make that decision on his own any longer-- I made it, I signed the paper not to bring back if his heart stopped-- it was the hardest thing I have ever done, but there is no cure for this disease, and I they would of brought him back his heart just would of stopped again and again until it was finally over--- have peace with the fact that your dad no longer suffers with the pain from this horrific disease, and no longer struggles with the disease of alchoholism... he is at peace!...
I ran across a quote earlier today, that I would like to share with everyone..
Some of us think that holding on makes us stronger, when in reality, its the letting go, and enduring the pain that makes us the strongest!
DK, good to see you here! I love that quote!