We feel your spirit lifting us up. Thank you all for your kind words and prayers which mean the world to me.
Vicki, Gene's nurse told me today that she didn't expect Gene to survive another day when she saw him on Monday. But today he was laughing and cracking corny jokes. Unfortunately, hospice still thinks he can go at anytime but said it's possible Gene will get to see the arrival of spring a mere two weeks away. He isn't called Miracle Boy for nothing.
I remain in shock and find it difficult to believe that moment I've dreaded for over three years has finally arrived. So far it's proceeding softly as my beloved wants it to be. He's breathing better with full time oxygen and so far has not needed morphine. Gene has been busy as a bee tonight doing silly things around the house trying in his sweet way to show me and the world he is still here and a vital part of my life.
My wonderful church community and friends have been rallying around me. They are bringing over meals and organizing a round Robin so Gene will not have to be alone and I can get out for short periods of time. When Gene first became ill four years ago I feared being alone and abandoned. I'm amaze at all the wonderful people who have become part of my life. That's his gift to me; I am not alone.
I pray I will not crumble under the strain and do not miss that sudden drop in blood pressure that will signal the end. So far it's been a gentle drop.
I'm grateful my beloved is not suffering,Barb