hang in dear it is like a bad rollercoaster ride, you are in my thoughts and prayers, you never know what can happen with this bad or good just take it day to day. good luck. keep in touch when you can. annette
what your feeling is normal, your so very tired of seeing your father wast away and suffer a horrible death who wouldnt feel that way i know i did. i thought i was a horrible person. to any person who understands this and see it first hand would feel the same way you do. after six months on a dead run with my father i was a real mess i needed two months rest to try to get back to something normal. and now i have to deal with some of the medical bills and the house had to get a lawyer. but at least hes not suffering anymore thats the only way i can look at it and deal with it. just ask the dr what he thinks and how long he thinks he has left i,m sure he would have some kind of idea, and maybe you and your sister could put your heads together and come up with something. i had a dr tell me that cirrohsis was one of the most horrible death. please do not feel like a bad person at all i,m sure that everyone in this forum will tell you the same thing. have you tried talking to hospise? they were a great help for me. i only used them for a very short time. my husband told me that i was grieving even before i lost my father, and some of it is he was my only parent left and when he passed you kind of feel alone really alone like you have nobody else but i did. here is something i want to share its called falling apart,
i seem to be falling apart. my attention span can be measured in seconds. my patience in minutes. i cry at th drop of a hat. i forget to sign checks. half of everything in the house is misplaced. feeling of anxiety and restlessness are my constant companions. rainy days seem extra dreary. sunny days seem an outrage. other people,s pain and frustration seem insignificant. laughing,s, happy people seem out of place in my world. it has become routine to feel half crazy. i am told i am a newly grieving person.
i felt this way before i even lost him. i keep this on my fridg i read it almost everyday to remind me i,m not crazy. good luck to you and your family my thoughts and prayers are with you.
good luck and you all hang in there marisa and family, this is what we did with my father, was the best thing for everybody, when there is no hope then you have to let go as hard as it will be most times its the right thing to do. as long as the drs agree. do not second guess yourself because you know hes not going to get any better. making him comfortable right now is the most important thing and being there with him. even if hes in and out he knows your there. my thoughts and prayers are with you and your father.
Hello Marisa, I do know how cruel this disease is, it is just as hard on the family as it is the patient, from a emotional stand point. I know the decision's are not always easy, your feeling's are quite normal. I went through 2 years of the awful disease with my husband, he is now doing well after a transplant. My Mother, died from throat cancer 2 years ago, another horrible disease with much suffering. I was Praying to God for his will to be done for her, I took care of her for almost a year. I thanked the Lord when she passed away, the suffering was gone. I still miss her but she is in a much better place. I'll put you and your family in my prayers!