I'm scared. I went in for an ultrasound today and the tech was doing her thing and then stopped and said “do you have any pain right here?” I did, it hurt right under my sternum. I had not notice this because it doesn’t hurt unless u put pressure on it. She said to me “is this the reason that you are here today” I said no because the doc said he just wanted to see what my liver was looking like these days. I'm scared. The result won’t be in for another day or two. My levels were great this passed summer and then I tapered down to the 9 mg of prednisone and my levels shot up and I felt crappy. So they put me back on 20 mg but I can’t deal with the emotional/mental torment that that amount puts me through. I cant handle it, I get mean and sad and paranoid and even suicidal (anyone else expressed this?) . So as of yesterday I'm down to 15. I'm scared. I am also suppose to be taking 750 mg of Cellcept twice a day but I can’t get myself to put that in my body because no one can give me definitive answers about the damage that the med does. I'm scared and confused and angry that I'm have to deal with this. I don’t know how to deal with this. I had a good summer health wise but now its like its back to crappy feeling.
Thanks for listening.
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