Wow. You are all so amazing. I'm sitting here in my big chair where kitty and I would nestle together each night while I yakked on the internet. I have a big pillow shoved into the space where she should be but, as you can imagine, it is definitely not the same. Is it possible to do permanent damage to the eyes and face from constant crying? I look like someone inflated my head with helium.
Keriamon, I have been praying for three years about how best to deal with mom and dad. I live in Seattle and they live in Florida so I am trying to discern if I should go there to be with them. I was laid off 18 months ago from my last job and wondered then if it was time. Now, after this news, it looks like all the signs are pointing southeast. It's a tough decision to make because my son just got engaged to his girlfriend of 11 years and they will be planning the wedding for next summer. I wanted to be around to help but it looks like I am needed elsewhere.
The acute stress of trying to decide what to do about kitty has passed now and I'm left with just extreme sadness. The stress of trying to decide what to do about mom and dad is more the lingering, low-impact stress that most of us live with every day. But for two days my guts were jumping like a string of firecrackers had gone off inside them. Because I was on high alert about the kitty, the bowels just went into lock down. Last night I had one of those very rare (for me) encounters with atrocious nausea. Was very close to sticking the old finger down the throat. It's crazy how folks with digestive issues often must resort to sticking their fingers into some orifice to get relief! One thing is for sure: when I do meet my maker, my first question will be "um, about the human body? WHAT WERE YOU THINKING????".
Thanks to everyone for all your kindness and support. You guys rock.