I am so sorry your IBS is giving you a nasty deal right now. I feel you identified one of your problems as stress and your dissatisfaction with the path your life has taken.
I am glad you are working on dealing with your issues and may I suggest you practice staying in the moment.
Begin to journal. Get honest with how you feel about things; how things "really are" instead of how you "think" they are. Write it all down. Be honest with yourself! Spend a lot of time thinking about what's happening right now, instead of dwelling on the past. There is no future in the past. Being concerned about something that has already happened; something you cannot change, keeps you stuck. To begin again; to really move ahead, you must work on you! Let go of the past.
We are here to help you so please look at perhaps talking to the members of anxiety in the A & P forum to help you sort through your issues with how your life is going right now. :)
I have anxiety and I have IBS also. I know where your coming from and what your going through.
Kitt, Moderator: Anxiety ~ Panic
Not a mental health professional of any kind
It is health that is real wealth and not pieces of gold and silver.~Mahatma Gandhi~