Yea, it's anxiety. I started to have anxiety attacks when I was a teenager; my biggest fear was going to sleep and not waking up. I can't explain it and every now and again I have a hard time getting to sleep because of it. So thats why anesthesia makes me so scared. Which is kind of weird because you are monitored the whole time... I dunno.
The day I found that quote I was like, wow, thats perfect. And I try to go by it, but man is it hard.
"Dwell not on the past. Use it to illustrate a point, then leave it behind. Nothing really matters except what you do now, in this instant of time. From this moment onward you can be an entirely different person, filled with love and understanding, ready with an outstretched hand, uplifted and positive in every thought and deed." Eileen Caddy
Diagnosed: Anxiety/Panic Attacks, Depression, Allergies
Had gallbladder removed 10/2005
Quit smoking 10/2005 YAY!!
Medications: Klonopin 1.5mg daily, Celexa 30mg daily, Singulair, Rhinocort, Multi-Vitamin and Calcium