I got stuck in that messy bm-stage I dread, it's almost what many of you experience and describe as dumping. One messy bm after another. Not D, not formed either. If I'm home I prefer to let my body do its now "natural" thing (whatever the heck that is). But a few times I had to go to work so I resorted to taking Imodium (but I had run out this med because overall I am stocking up less on grocery or pharmacy items due to a very tight budget now). By Thursday I knew I needed my best meal - a roasted chicken from the deli at Krogers, mashed potatoes from Bob Evans, a vegetable and iceberg lettuce salad. My husband never complains when this meal arrives on the dinner table - LOL Thank goodness! I had a long drive ahead of me on Friday afternoon to bring my daughter home from her college campus for her spring break. I couldn't chance eating lunch so I hadn't eaten for 12 hours. Except for a few club crackers and sips of water. Today I am still trying to level things out and feel somewhat normal - before work tomorrow. Oh how I wish I had a normal gut like I used to have (10 years ago). Ha, those days are history.....a dim memory. Someone asked me recently when I explained as simply as I could that I spend a lot of time in the bathroom since having had rectal cancer - ah ha, you have a straight pipe don't you?
Not sure if I like that description or not but it sure feels accurate (internally!). open mouth, insert food, chew food, swallow and then sit on the pot. (not that quickly but you get the idea....).
Just venting. I know I have a lot to be very thankful for - cancer has not returned. I haven't even had one benign colon polyp since my tumor was diagnosed April 1999. I've been at this for almost 10 years (June 1999 is when my temp ostomy was reversed and the "fun" began).
Surgery is out, we barely have medical insurance now, we might as well not even have it. $2500 ind. deductibles, high copays, insurance company looks for the tiniest of details to reject a claim.
So I'm basically maintaining this new at one time, old now, internal gut set up I'm stuck with. Ugh.....
Wishing you all better days ahead. Wish we all could flip a switch and have normal bm's, normal guts.
- Diagnosed with rectal cancer, April 1999 - Stage I, no treatment necessary
(5 hour colon resection: 90% sigmoid removed, 15 inches of colon removed, gall bladder removed, given temporary colostomy)
- Colostomy reversal, June 1999
- Left with IBS/D symptoms, multiple bm's every day
- On a low residue diet at least 75% of the time
- Takes Colace 50 mg each evening
All in all I do okay, I just use the bathroom A LOT! But I survived and beat cancer!