I have had D for over 2 years. It is impossible to hold down a job. I have had to leave 3 jobs because of > 30 bouts a day, sometimes only 3. It all depends on if I eat or not. I went to a GI doc @ 18 mos ago, paid cash for a colonoscopy, and had 2 small polyps removed (no cancer), and was diagnosed with diverticulitis. The nice GI told me he refused to diagnose me with "a disease" because I wouldn't get insurance. He did put me on 2 Lialda a day, didn't do anything for me, after taking it for 6 months. I had to write to the drug co for free meds, but I made to much money and had to pay $86 for a 3 mo supply, good deal! I saw my reg doc a few months ago and had blood tests and stool test...$800., no blood, no mucus, no celiac dx. So what the heck? I have never had anyone tell me what I can and cannot eat. I eat all the time and drink plenty of fluids so I don't get dehydrated. My doc has now sent me a form to send to Proctor and Gamble for Asacol.
My stool is mostly water, with intermittent flecks of stool. I recognize foodstuffs that I have eaten, will probably never eat again, and recognize the fact that my body is not digesting the food. There has never been occult blood or pus/mucus, that I can recognize. The bm is ALWAYS so foul that I am humiliated beyond belief to allow others in my bathroom.
I am so tired. I feel so helpless and don't really know what to do anymore. I am so stressed out. I wonder, will I EVER have a real bowel movement again? I mean seriously. How can I hold down a job? Oh, thats right, no job, no insurance. This really sucks.
I am not sure why I am writing tonight other then the fact I have read tons of posts on IBS and UC and just needed a little hug. A virtual one.
Is there anyone else that cannot work? My doc wants me to apply for SSI disability but I refuse. I am not ready to throw in the towel. I WANT to work. I want to be normal.
Sorry, I had to get this down tonight.
Multiple healthfood "fixes", as in:
Acidophilus, Natures Sunshine Cramp Relief, NS Blood Build, NS Intestinal Soothe and Build, Align, Phazyme, multiple bottles of Loperimide. Also a bunch of other otc healthfood store stuff.
I am not dissing healthfood or the stores, not at all. I am just frustrated and am not mad at them or anyone at all. I am over 50 and female.