Can I just vent about something?
My roommate gave me an earful last night. She had been drinking a bit, which is never a good situation with her, and told me that she couldn't believe all the sick time I get from work and couldn't believe how often I go home sick. "I would never be able to get all that time off, and if I could, I wouldn't," she said. "I would feel way too guilty." She proceeded to tell me she thinks I'm a "bit of a hypochondriac" and that I am making myself sick because I am stressed. She thinks that the reason my guts are getting better is because I'm in love and if I had just been happier this year I wouldn't have had any problems. I'm relaying this information nearly verbatim.
She also went off about how poor she was growing up, how she can never see doctors because she is uninsured, how she hates going to them anyway, how could I possibly see so many doctors, etc.
My roommate is a waitress and a good friend of mine; like a sister. She can say certain things that other people would never get away with. But sometimes she pulls things out of her arse, things that are so outrageous I can't even imagine the source, and it drives me bonkers. I am a very relaxed person but she pushes my buttons like no one else! It was really hurtful.
The tricky thing is this: she is getting on her feet after being sporadically employed for a few months now, and has paid about $400 in rent over the past four months (my rent is $800). I think she feels really insecure about this even though I tell her I know she is doing the best she can, working two jobs. Honestly, I could care less about her paying rent as long as she doesn't leave the place a pigsty. But somehow it seems like she feels indebted and maybe resentful about it? Is that why she's being nasty?
We hashed it out and made up, but I'm still feeling wounded.
Gads. At least Adam is house-sitting for the next week or so and I'll be spending most of my time with him!