anxiety based ibs anyoe?!?!?

ARE YOU AFRAID OF THROWING UP
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I DONT TAKE MEDS B/C OF MY FEAR - 11.5%
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IM NOT AFRAID B/C I GOT HELP - 11.5%
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NEVER BEEN AFRAID - 23.1%
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DONT KNOW WHERE TO FIND HELP - 7.7%
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FREAR CONTROLS ME - 46.2%

 
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scared2getsick
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   Posted 5/22/2007 1:07 AM (GMT -6)   
i cant tell u how much it helps to hear that others have anxiety based ibs! ive always known this was mostly in my head, but everyone said that was not possible. My ibs started right after i graduated high school when I started taking birth control pills in conjunction with a very emotionally damaging relationship. I began have D and pain every night. I would stay up all night long pacing, watching tv and waking my parents in a panic telling them i was going throw up, but never did. My mom decided i was having IBS with a panic attack. It was awful. It got to the point where i was scared to leave the house or be alone.

I finally bit the bullet, stopped taking the pills and moved away from home to Charleston, SC for school. I was very very happy there and in no time flat the IBS and anxiety disappeared completely during my entire three year stay there. Shortly after I moved back home, I started taking the pills again for polyscystic ovaries and all the symptoms started again except this time it was worse. I couldn't leave the house and developed a paralyzing fear of throwing up. This time when I stopped the pills, the ibs and anxiety never went away completely. For a few short years the symptoms went away when I was activley involved in a church that made me very very happy.

Unfortunately, I had to leave that church and ever since the anxiety and ibs come back from time to time. I can go from IBS-C at times to IBS-D, sometimes I will go normally in the AM and then get cramping and poop at night or later on but not full out D. I am pertrified of vomiting when the cramping starts and feel so alone. My parents don't really understand, though they try. I use levbid for pain which helps some but not always completely. I too fear leaving the house and going places, but am sometimes just as scared at home. A heating pad helps some, but it oftne won't stay hot long enough.

I currrently have a lot of stress in my life. My father has a terminal pulmonary disease and my mother has a broken foot. I am in a very difficult relationship as well. I have no siblings, really close friends I can rely on or husband. The doctor wants to put me on Lexapro but i am petrieid of nausea side effects and weight gain. I just lost 20pds and don't want to gain them back. the doc also gave me vailum, but am scared of side effects there too as well as being knocked out and having one of my parents need me.

I hate this "disease" it controls you even when you aren't sick. I wish i could afford hypnotherapy, but can't b/c im not working to be at home and help take care of my parents. Im so tired. Any advice anyone?
Always grateful for the blessings I do have!


hungry
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   Posted 5/22/2007 8:32 PM (GMT -6)   
Just a thought here. Do you get acid reflux? Sometimes it can feel much worse; an anxious feeling. It is horrible. I didn't know I had it because I couldn't feel it but it was getting into my chest. I know how it is to have the anxiety part too - I went through this during a break-up and was afraid of throwing up. Have you had tests done because it might be due to anxiety, but there may be other things medically going on as well which could be making things worse for you. All my doctors told me it was only anxiety, but I later found out it was a little more complicated than just this. Just an idea. I don't know your medical history but I thought I would throw this out there because I heard that it isn't uncommon to have both.

ibssucks
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   Posted 5/23/2007 8:04 PM (GMT -6)   
Wow, your whole first paragraph sounds exactly like me. When I graduated high school my anxiety based ibs started up. I got a stomach virus and was throwing up and then from there it has been downhill for the past four years. I was also in a bad relationship and still am. I am afraid all the time of getting sick and having to go to the bathroom or throwing up. It's to the point where I won't go anywhere, except places really close by. The worst part is that staying home just makes my anxiety worse, so I have to go out. I find that working out has helped, it releases tension and stress which can lead to anxiety. It makes you feel healthier and takes your mind off of your anxiety. It sucks having anxiety about getting sick especially in the middle of the night when you want to sleep but you have to just pull through and hope for the best.

scared2getsick
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   Posted 5/24/2007 10:05 PM (GMT -6)   
its so nice to know others feel the same way! we should talk more. i feel the same way. wish we could talk tnight/ im up cramping and could use company, gas x, levbid and heating pad! i hate this!
Always grateful for the blessings I do have!


scared2getsick
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   Posted 5/24/2007 10:06 PM (GMT -6)   
let me know if want to im or email
Always grateful for the blessings I do have!


8blue2
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   Posted 5/29/2007 11:21 PM (GMT -6)   
Thanks for your story. Mine is similar. I too have IBS and polycystic ovarian syndrome. I also have a joint disorder, ehlers danlos AND I have chronic anxiety and depression. My IBS symptoms, usually throwing up and D, get SO much worse when I am anxious or under stress. My IBS symptoms didn't even start until my first year living alone. I had a horrible job that I could hardly go to because I couldn't stop throwing up. Symptoms went away after I quit my job but came right back when I went back to school and it started getting stressful. Exercise sometimes helps me, mediation, yoga, and spirituality. I just got diagnosed with IBS officially with a endoscopy. Unfortunately, I got a rash on my lips and chin right now from it. It is really itchy. I got meds from the MD for it and am now waiting for it to go away. I am only 24 and am really sick of being sick. Sometimes it feels like my body is falling apart. But, I think I will have a sunnier outlook when this darned rash goes away....

toepepper
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   Posted 6/3/2007 11:32 AM (GMT -6)   
My story also sounds like a lot of these. I had IBS really bad about 15 years ago. Can't remember what happened to make it go away. Now it's back with vengeance. I started having major problems with bleeding hemmorroids. They seem a little better but now my IBS is terrible. I go to the bathroom 4-6 times a day. It's really controlling my life at the moment. I just lay around the house when not working and hate to go many places anymore. I don't have much of an appetite and I'm losing weight (not very big to start with). I'm getting depressed since this has been going on for about a month now. Sometimes I just feel like I'm losing it! Have been going regularly to a colon surgeon for hemmorhoid treatments and now he's trying to help me with IBS. He gave me Bentyl but that doesn't seem to help and makes me feel even goofier! Am at my wits end!!

Sometimes I feel I bring on the IBS just thinking about it. I'm certainly dwelling on it a lot lately! Just don't know what to do or where to go anymore!!

Canyonbabe711
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   Posted 6/3/2007 8:37 PM (GMT -6)   
Stress causes acid production for me and that produces gas, bloating, sometimes pain but in my case shortness of breath because it pushes on my diaphragm. I already have emphysema. Until I can get some gas moving or some good burps I cough like crazy and feel a tightness on the left side of the stomach. I really don't know exactly where it blocks up. I have had all the tests but the Doctors never see me with it. I mostly am commenting on the fact that stress and anxiety can really do a number on me and it will go on for days till the gas is released. I use anything I can get my hands on to get rid of it.

Youie
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   Posted 6/3/2007 10:01 PM (GMT -6)   
I would just like to confirm my beliefs, as well, that stress has a lot to do with IBS. I've had UC going on 5 years, and tried a lot of things, none of which has done much to help. When I flare up I am in the bathroom every 45 minutes all day, every day. Nothing puts a dent in it. Then it seems to fade out for a time and I am only going 4-6 times a day and that seems like a huge relief (sheeesh). I had a job that I really hated, but needed the medical benefits, so I was pretty much stuck... in Jan. of 2006 I got promoted into a diff dept and I really love this new job. As of the 1st day I took the new job, my colitis dropped off to next to nothing and I was in "remission" for 11 months, until November of last year. That is by far the longest period of relief I have had since diagnosed w/ UC. There were no other variables in my treatment or lifestyle. In Nov. of 2006 my current job started changing and there are a great deal more stressors than a year ago, and sure as the sun rises, I am back into a major flare-up situation. I hope that you can find something that helps you to get peace, so you might find some relief. tongue

7Lil
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   Posted 6/4/2007 8:07 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi Youie,
Welcome to HealingWell! :-)

I agree with all of you, stress plays a big part in GI trouble (not just IBS). That's why it is so important to eat well, drink plenty of water, exercise, and have some sort of stress relief routine (meditation, etc.).
I was in the same boat as you, Youie. I had a great job that I loved and my IBS was almost non-existent... Then I got a new job that is really stressful and is a long commute away. Bam! My IBS got so bad I saw doc after doc thinking I had something crazy serious. Now I learn to manage it by diet and routine.
Youie, have you checked out or UC forum? There are a bunch of great people there.

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dbab
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   Posted 6/4/2007 10:14 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi Youie,

I don't have anything else to add that hasn't been said already. I just wanted to add my welcome to you to Healing Well as well. I also agree that you should check out the UC forum, lots of good info from the members.

Take Care
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jambi
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   Posted 12/19/2008 5:19 PM (GMT -6)   
All of you sound so much like me lol. Hello I am new here. I actually have to leave for work in about 20 minutes but I'm sitting here considering calling again. This all sucks so bad. I have constant burning in my chest. nausea, Diariah and sometimes the worse cramping known to man. Plus it sounds like theres a boiling pot in my stomach and it goes all the way up my chest, it so noisey. Anyway my problems started right after highschool. I am 26 now and still going through them but they seem to get worse as the years go on. I feel miserable. Knowone understands, my girlfriend says she does but i see the dissapointment in her eyes cause she wants to go out to eat or something and i can never go. Ive lost so much weight from fear of eating cause i suffer after wards. Dont get me wrong im hungry but when i eat its all down hill. Half the time i sit on the toilet with a bag in front of me because i dont know what end its going to come out on lol. Almost always diariah though, and even when i do feel like im going to throw up its usually dry heaving and we all know that hurts like hell lol. Anyway im sorry all of you have to suffer through this same pain. Look at the plus side atleast we have eachother to ***** and moan to and understand. Cause lord knows nobody else takes us serious and just thinks that we make it up. it would be nice to have someone to talk to though it gets so lonely feeling like you have a 24/7 stomach flu and knowone can comfort you

Pamela Neckpain
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   Posted 12/19/2008 9:54 PM (GMT -6)   
Dear Scared,
I've had part of the problems you have ~ not all.
I have had (D) so bad I couldn't leave home. Now I have (C) or prolapse.
I have had Agoraphobia. I still can't go to the store by myself.
I can't drive.
Part of this is because I have physical pain ~ but not all.
For Heavens Sake, take the Valium your doctor prescribed.
You need it.
If you're afraid, take just a tiny bite.
The next day, take a little more ...
on and on.
The Valium WILL help you.
Pamela

Post Edited (Pamela Neckpain) : 12/19/2008 7:58:36 PM (GMT-7)


Denys
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   Posted 10/14/2011 5:34 PM (GMT -6)   
I've had anxiety since I was in elementary school. I'm 23 now and it's only been a few years that I realized that it's more of an ibs anxiety. I, also, get like Jambi to where I don't like to eat in certain situations in fear that I will get gas or have to go to the bathroom. I feel like I am missing out on a lot of things in life because of this. Especially in regards to women. I am still a virgin because of the fear that I will get gassy or do other embarrassing things around her. I'm in great physical shape and am a good looking guy (not to sound arrogant) so, my friends and family always wonder why I've never had a girl friend and they don't really understand when I explain. My education has also suffered because of this. I can not stand being in a classroom setting. I usually go to the bathroom before I leave for class or work or pretty much out in general so that I won't have to whilst away from home. But that sometimes doesn't work with the gas.
And I know that my stomach problems all have to do with worrying and anxiety because I never get that way when I am in a comfortable setting. And I have tried over that past few years to push past uncomfortable situations and over come them but that hasn't seemed to work.
I know that I have to control my mind and have a more positive outlook and I can do it sometimes, but it's difficult to sustain those positive emotions.

If anyone has any tips or anything, that would be awesome. Well thanks guys. I'm glad we have people to talk to about this.

i-have-ibs
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   Posted 10/26/2011 7:55 AM (GMT -6)   
I experience terrible IBS symptoms related to anxiety so don't feel you are alone! I often worried I'm going to have such bad D taht I will soil myself. It's so difficult to leave the house sometimes so well done for moving away and going to college. I struggled to move to university but am very glad I did! You said you were happy to hear other people go through the same things as you, so perhaps this blog will help you feel less alone. It's important we all stick together.

Please follow me and my IBS experiences on:

http://i-have-ibs.blogspot.com/

maddiewhit10
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   Posted 1/11/2012 12:08 PM (GMT -6)   
I have had IBS since I was 8. Your first episode sounds exactly like mine when I was younger. Through high school and middle school it was so embarrassing to have to constantly be running to the bathroom. The doctor said it was directly related to the stress in my life and that I directed it unknowingly to my stomach. He prescribed me a mild antidepressant and Imodium pills. The Imodium would be a lifesaver when it came time to go to school in the mornings or any event that made me panic and my stomach to cramp up. During high school I only had a few episodes. I felt that I had controlled it through praying and focusing on other things. Now I am 19 and just broke up with my boyfriend of 2 yrs that i shared everything with. It has become such a stress moving back with my mom starting work and school and feeling that I have no one to depend on. My relationship with my mom is troubling and I occasionally have episodes. The most recent thing is anxiety. Terrible terrible hopeless feeling like I can't breathe and that I am going to throw up and am dying. My doctor just prescribed me xanax for my attacks and zoloft for everyday use. I'm not sure how this is going to go but you aren't alone on this quest. I believe everything happens for a reason and I hope to overcome my psychological and physical problems.

daisybrown
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   Posted 1/17/2012 4:06 PM (GMT -6)   
It's ironic that I should be sitting here today reading these posts about anxiety related IBS. I have been having trouble with IBS-D for the last year and a half. I thought it was related to antibiotics I took trying to get rid of a terrible sinus infection a year and a half ago and then again last march. However, I have worried and worried that something else was wrong with me. I've done stool tests twice but no colonoscopy or stomach scope.

I was diagnosed with GAD, OCD, and Trichotillomania several years ago ( i have also gone round and round with hypochondria). During this time I was in a VERY bad marriage and had terrible stress...oh it was BAD. I had different symptoms of IBS then. I had gas that I couldnt pass and constipation. Never even thought or heard of IBS at that time.

Now as I obsess over my bm's every morning I realize that I have had this type of thing for over 20 years. During my late teens and early 20's I would feel like vomiting and need to use the bathroom under stress. It was hard to admit to this at that age bc you don't want to seem like you can't handle your boss chewing you out for something. But that's the type of thing that would set it off. It would go away quickly, but I remember this happening occasionally.

Now my anxiety is worse. I went through a divorce 6 years ago and that's when the painful gas and constipation started up again. Then my youngest son went to live with his father. I was a wreck!....then I remarried (which was a very GOOD thing) but had D and C, gas and bloating. I even saw a doc about my constipation/gas/stress and I asked her about IBS....she said, nope you don't have diarrhea, eat more fiber and drink lots of water. duh, I already knew that! they only listened when it came to the d i started getting last year.

During all of this I had a hell of a time at work. Went through 3 jobs that were stressful and quite wretched. The last one laid me off ....then on to unemployment. Then on to school at age 40, TMJ, back aches, neck aches, the left rib cage ache....GERD..cant eat dairy, soy, citrus, gluten, salt (another syndrome). I can't eat anything!!!! But I do....and I pay for it with my gut and my anxiety. I take clonazepam 2x's a day, but it only takes the edge off. I also think it keeps me from having the cramping that i used to get.

Now I'm seeming to improve...although slowly..I dont have d all the time and dont have c all the time...I would say my bm's are just weird..no two days are the same.....Having said that, I still want a full work up by a GI doc. The other GI doc thought it was caused by the antibiotics and a bout of salmonella that occurred around the same time, but bc of my anxiety and OCD I obsess about the *what ifs.* So I want to know whats going on inside me. If they say all is well, maybe I can relax and quit obsessing.????

Anyway, I understand your frustration....Anxiety really sucks. I hate it, I hate it, I hate it. I wish there were a true cure for it.

Thanks for taking the time to read this. I hope you feel less alone.
db

Qloud
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   Posted 1/18/2012 6:27 PM (GMT -6)   
Denys, my situation is EXACTLY the same as yours. I am a male in college as a junior/senior, and am struggling so much while in the classroom. The primary issue is the stomach churning sounds while I'm just sitting there in class; the embarrassment just amplifies the social anxiety, so I've already skipped so much class time. I'm not a bad student at all (3.8 GPA), but this is definitely ruining my life. I practically live online, and at the gym (the only places I feel comfortable) :(

I'm also new here, but I'm glad I stumbled upon HealingWell; it's somewhat comforting to know I'm not the only person suffering (it assures me that I'm not insane!)

MinPin_Gal
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Date Joined Jan 2012
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   Posted 1/19/2012 4:08 AM (GMT -6)   
Hello, I'm new to the group. I was very happy to find this group and see I'm not alone... thought maybe I was going nuts or something. I have suffered with IBS and Anxiety/panic attacks and depression for just over 20 years. For me it started right after my second child was born when I was only 22. Just felt unwell at work one night had D and has NEVER been the same since. The first few years were so bad I stopped leaving the house and am a complete agoraphobic now. I had a small remission about 12 year ago, but then I tried to do to much and it returned. The IBS did improve for awhile, but I remained housebound. The last 3 weeks have been hell... I think it returned with a vengeance. I just had a food intolerance test done 2 weeks ago, to find out I certainly do have some, have eliminated those foods... but right now it is NOT helping. I'm having anxiety 80% of the day with stomach aches, bloating, gas pain, very uncomfortable. Bowel movements are a mess. Feel so horrible and with the anxiety crap makes it worse. No one in my family understands... I have the dreaded fear of vomiting, so that adds even more, I freak when I feel sick or weird. I think this came on with a vengeance around xmas time is because my beautiful Mom, my best friend passed away in Sept. I haven't been the same since... I think I was suppressing my feelings due too making funeral arrangements, taking care of her affairs. Then when everything settled, then bam. I feel like death, just want to die. I miss her terribly... then this hits! Help! Feel so alone in this. I'm a huge burden on my family, they just go get it at all... feel so guilty all the time as my hubby has to do everything outside the home. Would love to talk to anyone... can have my e-mail and or I have facebook too.

Crazymomto3
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   Posted 1/22/2012 7:39 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi all...
I am new here. I have known I am lactose intolerant since I was 13. So I took lactase or avoided dairy, and for the most part Iwas fine. Then a few years ago I had c. Diff colitis due to taking antibiotics for strep throat. My stomach has not been the same since. I did go through a remission of sorts for about a year...but now it's back again with a vengeance! I have not had a full week of work since before Christmas. I had a colonoscopy and endoscopy done, but all they found was mild gastritis and hemorrhoids....I get so bound up and then cramp up.. There are times I cramp up and am in major pain and then nothing happens.
I also get these funky feelings in my chest and get faint feeling....

I have a follow up with my family Dr. But I am not sure if he will be able to help. It is getting to the point I can not even leave the house for fear I will have an episode.

daisybrown
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   Posted 1/22/2012 8:04 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi Crazymomto3,

Gosh I'm sorry to hear your having such a rough time. It sounds awful, but I can relate. I actually have IBS-D and occasional C... Has your doc talked to you about GERD? It has some strange effects on people....that "funky feeling in the chest and feeling faint" sounds like symptoms I read about after I was diagnosed. While reading the article I realized that I had been having the faint feelings too (like almost falling over when I get up too fast from sitting or squatting position). I haven't noticed it since I started the omeprozole the doc has me on. AND the constant pain I was having on my left side (under the rib cage) is soooo much better too. I used to get this weird suffocating feeling around my rib cage...like where your diaphram is.. It felt like the ribs were closing in on the rest of my stomach area. Very strange and scary feeling.

It's worth talking to your doctor about. I understand GERD can be common in people with IBS and Celiac Disease. Have you been tested for CD? You don't have to have diarrhea to have CD. But then, maybe you were biopsied with your endoscopy? That's the best way to get a true diagnosis.

At least now you know you're not alone in this.

Good luck to you!
db

Stella Muro
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   Posted 2/9/2012 1:32 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi everyone... here is my story.. kind of a cathartic process just telling it!

When I was 23 I moved into Manhattan for no real reason other than everyone else was doing it, and my parents thought it would be a great growing up experience for me. I'm from LI so moving to the city was kind of par for the course.

I lived alone at first in an apt my father owned but didn't really live in anymore. I had no job before moving in. I was hooked up with a temp agency and worked temp jobs for a couple months, which help me learn the city, the subways, the whole shebang.

about 6 months into it I decided to move in with a close friend whose roommate was leaving. She was weird about it from the beginning, as was I, but whatever I did it anyway because my father was then selling the apt I was currently in. Living with this close friend was ok at best. Her annoying gorilla boyfriend was there all the time even though he had his own apt so eventually it was just decided that he start contributing to rent and utilities and all that. Unfortunately for me, they decided that only THEY would get the break in rent bc they were sharing a room, not me. So they split the rent between themselves which was already split between me and her, and my rent stayed the same amount. bullcrap. I made my feelings known but nothing got done.

6 months after THAT, talk was in the works about renewing our lease or something of the sort. I kind of didnt want to do that. I was even considering moving back home. i HAD found a permanent job by now, but was not making enough to really afford the $$$ apt, city life, bills, etc. Not to mention they both made way more than me and split the rent between themselves so I kind of always felt they were cheating me. I also HATED this boyfriend of hers. What an a*hole. Just the worst idiot ever. I kind of spent a lot of time venting to friend and making from of them to my other friends back home as therapy. They all felt my pain and wished Id just move back. At some point, the tension was palpable. The boyfriend was starting to realize my disdain and was hating me back. I think he assumed I was crap talking them to my friends so one day he listened in on a conversation I was having in my room on my phone. The next he was sneaking looks at my texts. The following day i left my phone home by accident and when i came home there were all these texts from him saying hed received texts from ME crap talking them. I was like what?? he fwded me the texts and they were texts from SOMEONE ELSE to me, not FROM ME to someone else. So how in gods holy name would HE have magically received these messages? And he said he received them at 730 am, when they were originally from 10pm the previous night. After much considering I realize he had snuck into my room while i was showering in the morning and LOOKED at my phone messages and fwded himself the messages. I went into a panic. I never felt like this in my life. My heart, my head, my blood, everything was boiling. I had to get out of there. He was threatening that he was going to tell my friend/roommate about this if I didnt fess up, but my phone was at work so since I never replied he told her. You can't even imagine the scene. They told her parents who wanted to call the police and felt I was threatening her life. I mean, it got REALLY bad. I barely put up a fight except to him. My fight wasnt with HER it was with him. And he stood in the corner and smirked while me and her fought and I would call him out and say YOURE the one. I got kicked out of that apt a few days later. and was home on LI for the next 6 months. I still commuted to my job in manhattan from there.

Around that time, and still reeling from the all the after-shocks of an even like that (seeing them around the city, explaining the story to people, picking up belongings, cancelling checks), ANOTHER friend of mine decided I was trying to steal her personal identity via her email and called the police on me and told me to never talk to her again. I HAD used her email to gain a 50% discount for first time customers at a local lunch spot near my office and my email was used already so I used hers and explained what I did. She thought it was funny and was like oh whatever that's cool, it was her b-day coming up, we said we needed to get together and the conversation continued normally. Two days later the cops are calling me telling me she barged into the precinct hysterical that I was like, stealing her whole life via her email. I was in a car wash at the moment the phone call came through and the feeling of the boiling blood and heart and face just came back. I couldn't believe this was happening again. Why were my closest friends doing this to me? *** was going on!? What did I ever do to deserve this? In neither instance was I ever granted the opportunity to explain or defend myself, I was shut down and corked up. Imagine going through that kind of trauma twice in 6 months. Life changing. I lost 2 groups of friend bc of those events, about 10 people.

I moved in w my best friend friend in Brooklyn and she too began the crap with the boyfriend coming over. How could she do this knowing what i JUST went through. I couldn't believe it. I said nothing except slight comments that shed dismiss or make excuses for or whatever. She never said, look I know you just went through some really hard stuff so if there's ever anything that I can do, let me know" like how hard would that have been? I didn't need her whole life to change, just a consideration. I had to listen to them have sex up against the wall my bed was on in the middle of the night, early in the morning, etc. It was ****ing rude. And Id feel that boiling feeling again. I shut down completely. Id come home, drink beer, eat ice cream and go to bed. I was in an annoying relationship with someone who was a deviant manipulative freak. All my money was gone bc of him. It was bad again. AGAIN!

I finally left the city, left my job. I was starting to not be able to take subways. faint online for lunch. Near faint in elevators. I couldn't wait for anything without getting cold sweats or fainting. Id race into work go straight to the bathroom and sit on a toilet and shake and sweat. It'd eventually go away and I resume my day. I couldn't be small spaces anymore. Id go to m'y friends apt and alcohol would affect me more and make me faint and anxiety ridden. I smoked at the time, and Id have a cig and be dizzy and come close to fainting. Id wait for 6 subways to go by before one would come that had a seat available for me. I couldn't stand still and wait, Id have to pace back and forth or sit.

Then came social anxiety. I didn't want to go to bars or parties. I didn't want to be in the city anymore. I start school to become a teacher. Id have anxiety attacks in classes, during observation hours at schools, and this is when IBS became a problem. The intense butterflies I felt now cause intense diarrhea.
like ***, really?! I felt like cursed. And I always brought it back to those traumatic events with my ex-friends. I also have considered a PTSD type thing.

2 years ago this June, I got a colitis flare up. Never even HEARD of it til this happened. Was in the hospital for a week. Had a colonoscopy, they found nothing. I got prescribed expensive pro-biotics that did nothing. It never got better. From the point on 2 years ago til now, I go to the bathroom TERRIBLE every single morning. for hours. starts at 7 ends at 1030. If I have to go anywhere before noon, its a problem. I got a job at a high school as a teaching assistant and would spend entire periods in the bathroom. Id have to leave or take off entirely. Id have to orchestrate coverage with other TAs from the bathroom bc I couldn't make it to the class to teach. it was NOT okay. I since left that job and am on the final leg of my teaching program and will start student teaching in September. Words cant express the dread. The fear. The anxiety. I can induce have diarrhea just thinking about it. I don't know what to do. I have 5 tests I need to study for and take for this certification and they are all in the mornings. I feel like I wont be able to take the tests. :( I don't know why I ever chose a profession that traps you in a classroom and you cant leave.

Ive come to many realizations and made many discoveries about my condition that compared to 3 years ago are like revelations. Coping skills, knowledge, etc. Its to the point where I can almost handle the anxiety now, the attacks the panic, the worrying. Its the IBS. Its the diarrhea. I mean come on man. I don't ever want to poop again. I want a coloscomy bag where I can poop all day long and not worry about it bc its a bag, not my pants. My biggest fear is that I will poop all over myself bc of not making it to the bathroom in time. Also what happens is hat if I REALLY have to go, and can't, or the bathroom is occupied at the moment, I go into like septic shock and get cold sweats and nearly faint. Ive been in the bathroom for an HOUR at work sweating and crapting and blacking out for a second. THAT IS NOT NORMAL!!!!!!??? Why is this happening to me?

I dont know if anyone is even still alive after reading this horribly written post, and for that I truly apologize. I've never actually put the whole thing down in one shot like this before. Are there medications that can ease nervous stomach, IBS type symtoms? I am considering CBT and also asking about beta blockers.

I am just really really afraid that this is going to rule my life forever and ruin my career. :(

daisybrown
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   Posted 2/9/2012 10:56 PM (GMT -6)   
WOW Stella you went through some really bad times. I can understand your anxiety. Finding out who your friends *really* are is such a rude awakening. I feel for you and hope that you are on a better track with better friends.

Have you seen a doc about your anxiety? I take Klonopin for my anxiety attacks and it really helps me, but i know there are other helpful drugs, too. Also, what has your doc got you taking for the IBS-d? Has he/she recommended whole psyllium husk? It is bulk forming and can make your bm's more solid. Did you stop eating the IBS no-no's?

I sure hope there's more that can be done to make a change for you. Becoming a teacher is such a wonderful accomplishment and I would hate to think you couldn't do it bc of this.

I know this may sound crazy, but have you ever thought of having your aura cleansed? Or maybe seeing a naturepath that does kinesiology (en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kinesiology) BOY does that sound CRAZY? I just re-read it and it totally sounds crazy.....but this anxiety is with in you and it has to come out....this problem you had in the past is what triggered the anxiety and IBS....it has to exit your body! Hey, whatever works, right? You have to find relief, conventional or not.....it's imperative that you to get your life back.

I have had kinesiology practiced on me recently and it has made a HUGE difference in my anxiety and obsessive behavior. My IBS symptoms are better too.

I just feel for you and hope you can find some sort of help because the most important thing you can do in life is be an inspiration to others...and you can do that with your students! It's so important for you to continue that and feel a sense of satisfaction instead of dread.

I hope you keep in touch to let us know how you are doing. I wish you so much good luck.
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Stella Muro
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Date Joined Feb 2012
Total Posts : 2
   Posted 2/10/2012 10:09 AM (GMT -6)   
Thank you for your suggestions. I will consider those as viable options for sure. My problem to date has been that anxiety keeps me from going to Drs and sitting for tests or homeopathic treatments. I tried getting a massage about a year ago, and I literally had to run out with only 10 min left because I had to go to the bathroom was practically fainting on the table. What a waste of $120!!!

I the idea of laying down for acupuncture or anything like that is anxiety inducing. even haircuts or getting my nails done turn into a huge deal.
I really would like a medicine that cures everything haha I've been looking into Beta 2 blockers bc they apparently target adrenaline glands in the stomach, as opposed to the brain or some other gland location. Xanax makes me feel like a crack addict the second I take it. I literally have .25mg and i bite off a tiny little shard off that and I still feel cracked out. Ive heard from a few people that Klonopin was heavy as well. Ive been recommended Valium bc it is weaker than Xanax, so I think at my next dr visit I will ask. I will also look into pyschiatrists or CBT therapists bc I will need that kind of support system once I begin student teaching. Ugh. I just feel like my life got taken away from me. I used to be fearless, now Im just a pooping scaredy cat.

barrybangtidy
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Date Joined Mar 2012
Total Posts : 1
   Posted 3/2/2012 2:35 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi people, Im new to this site, even though Im a fellow sufferer its great to hear Im not the only one with similar problems.

Here's my story... Im a 22 year old male, and have had IBS ever since I was 10 years old following a nasty burst appendix which has plagued me with stomach problems ever since.

In the past I seem to generally have periods of bad IBS (usually D) that would be prominent throughout a stressful period (e.g the first year moving to university, or first year in a new school etc) and recently I worked abroad for a length of time. Although initially enjoying the work I grew to dislike it deeply mainly due to some falling outs and awkward moments with colleagues (who I also had to live with) that provided a lot of stress. the last few weeks were terrible and i was in constant pain/cramping. I took so much immodium out of fear of being ill (as time off wasn't really an option) that the D may have stopped but the cramping didn't.

Anyway since returning home the anxiety/panic attack side of it is worse than ever. Before if I felt a bit of pain I usually had enough self-(I dunno really) confidence?? to know I was going to be ok? and had a maturity/experience that didn't control it but realised the best way to deal with it. It also used to be just a morning thing - awful before lunchtime but fine afterwards which was quite manageable. Now, I still seem stressed out even though Im not in that job anymore (almost like a really weak post-traumatic experience- even I realise this sounds crazy, it wasn't like I was in a war or anything!)

The attacks now also don't lead to diarrhoea necessarily, its worse, they give me a feeling of terrible cramping, nausea, adrenaline rush and a real feeling of light-headedness, suddenly followed by terrible fatigue. I'll be walking somewhere then all of a sudden feel like my legs are going to give and Im going to collapse. In the past the only pescription that works is amitryptiline (spelling) as it calms me down and i stop having the attacks but they make me extremely groggy and not with it, and have terrible head-aches. So I'd prefer not to take them. Does anyone else have these symptoms and if so know of a cure that doesn't have side-effects?

Sorry to rant on and on, so anyway, the final point is to stella I've been where you were with the attacks that lead to diarrhoea (not as bad I admit) before I went abroad with say, going to get my haircut - and as soon as i sit in the chair I have a need to go (knowing that I cannot and/or it would be socially embarrassing to get up and run to the loo for 20 mins). But I used to be able to control it with immodium, ant-acids and if I absolutely had to, amitryptiline (10mg) (would also take a few days to work). Also I know this sounds a bit weird, but sometimes mentally planning my day to every detail can help. Basically allowing enough time for everything, and every possible situation, can stop me say, being suddenly late and in a rush which can cause stress which leads to cramping, and also I have a fear of not being able to go, so i end up constantly identifying the nearest bathrooms in any place im going to.

anyway, these techniques used to be effective for me but the last few weeks I have found myself feeling ill not dependant on the situation Im in. I'm thinking of another doctors visit soon but if anyone can help or offer suggestions on how to deal with nausea/adrenaline side of attacks, that would be very much appreciated. Also hope my tips help to those who have the urge to go suddenly.
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