Thank you so much for your encouragement. My latest bloodwork reveals that I now have something called a low glomerular filtration rate. It's a 78. Normal is 90. Evidently my kidneys aren't working well. I don't see my rhemy until January, but I'm thinking my pcp's bloodwork results may warrant an earlier visit.
I may ask him about the methotrexate. I want to quit work so badly, but I cannot do that to my sweet husband. He has been fabulous throughout everything. He does housework, laundry, shopping, whatever needs to be done. He never complains. He says, "That's what love does." I am so blessed. As tired as I am all the time, I just can't saddle him with the entire financial burden for our family. I'm sure that I'm not sick enough for SSDI. I feel weird about that, too.
In an ideal world, I would get to stay at home, go to the doctor whenever I need to, rest when I need to, and eat and drink all the weird stuff I need in order to make my plumbing work. It's SO hard to drink enough when you're a teacher. You just can't go to the bathroom whenever nature calls. EVERYTHING is carefully scheduled.