In His Grip
AlwaysRosie "We can't control the waves, but we can learn how to surf!!"
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UCTD, Inflammatory Arthritis, Diverticulosis, (recent dx - Sjogrens, Crohn’s 4/08)
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Try to hold on for one more day. and if that seems too much, hold on for one more hour. things change. all of us here, have been there. and I get that place every now and then. too much to deal with, but I think of my kids who are my children and grandchildren, and who are still young. No one needs to do that to a child. your parents what would they do? Who would find your body if you took your life. what would it look like? How could your parents cope. I know for certain that the worst pain in my life has been when my children, grandchioldren, great grandchildren, were hurting. This is a huge pain you could choose to give to them. So I changed my plan to be somewhere far away for my family to have to find me. but for the most part I try to create the perfect suicide, how anybody hurts so badly if I plan to hurt myself. and there is no such plan created. everybody hurts if you take your life. you take yourself out of the picture. every holiday, people will cry for you. every day your parents will remember and regret the plan that you may create.
One more hour. I think I will hold on for one more hour. and when I do this things always change. and if I had completed the plan to end my life, I would have regretted it. no second chances. please give yourself and your parents and all who love you, a second chance. even for one more minute.