It is going to work out, take a deep breath. There is alot of help out there. It's just knowing where to look and who to ask. My husband is in the same boat Red's husband is. Ask your pharmacist if there is anyway she could connect you to drug company med donations to get you over the next few months. Ask if the drug store itself, under your drs. ok, could DONATE a 90 day or weeks supply to you. Or give you the business card contact info for all their pharmaceutical reps, who truly, drive around peddling their wares and free samples out of their briefcase and trunk. Call each of your drs. and ask if there is anyway they could double your doses so you could take half a tab for twice as long for half the cost.... ask if they could give you samples to get you by until your state insurance approval comes in, (and it will, eventually) And buy a dollar store calander. Start taking notes and documenting everything and names and contact numbers of everyone you speak to. Ask for peoples full name and title, sweetly let them know you are taking notes and writing down everything you are told, because, (not that you don't trust them and the system , but that you are so sick, and scared and stressed and upset, you are afraid you will forget. Copy EVERYTHING YOU FILL OUT and send for any reason. Copies are cheap at the library. Ask your minister, or a friend's minister, if they could sponsor your med costs until you get your insurance back, or just put a prayer request in the church bulletin. Lupus and cancer, transplants and autoimmune diseases seems like favorite diagnoses that insurance companies relish terminating coverage for. Just what you want, the fight of a lifetime, but how would you eat an elephant? One bite at a time.