Well thanks alot Donna! You're one of the people I can always count on to come here see your post and know I will be able to relate to it. Now you're gonna tell me you're nuts??? Where exactly does that leave me? I thought I had it together now I am totally disillusioned!
I have never thought of being sick as my fault. I have done plenty of things in my life that I am the only one I can blame for but this? No way.
It's kind of hard to blame myself for a disease that if you cram all the doctor DX's together I would be sick with something calls crestofbilateralchirrorisisofsclerodermalupusnothingwrongwithme disease. I guess what I am saying if 5 doctors can't nail it down to maybe 2 or 3 possibilities then how can you possibly feel guilty about something no one understands. Ok so if you go out playing with chickens and get chicken poxs that's one thing but what is known about this disease could fit on a pin a a needle.
I do beleive that depresion and anxiety is part of the disease simply because of the organs involved. Kind of like we usually run low grade fevers with this stuff even if we don't feel sick. It's just the bodies way of dealing.
You need to keep coming back here no matter how you feel if for no other reason then to write down all the people on here that are more of a nut job then you are. It's like chicken soup for the soul!
Post Edited (okie) : 1/7/2010 4:34:08 PM (GMT-7)